Divergent High

Chapter thirty four

Tris pov

"To happy things" Tobias asks as we cheer our glasses

We're at a beach house our parents sent us to for the weekend to get our minds off of everything that is happening. I didn't want to leave out poor Logan but our parents forced me to leave his hospital bed side.

They will be staying with him the whole weekend instead of how normally Tobias and I are there.

His treatments won't start until next week so Logan is used to the regular hospital stay, nothing too crazy is going on for him.

I gulp down the champagne and Tobias looks at me worried.

We're having a nice candle light dinner on the patio. Tobias cooked an amazing dinner, I just don't have an appetite.

"Hon, are you okay" He ask

"I'm just thinking about Logan" I say and he nods

"Me too" he says

"I just want him to get better" I say and Tobias stands from his seat and grabs a hold of my hand standing me up with him.

"I do too" he whispers and I lay my head on his chest.

There's slow romantic music playing in the background so we just slowly sway to it.

He holds my waist and I move my arms to wrap around his neck.

"Makes me think of our wedding day every time we dance like this" he says and I look up at him with a smile

"I'm happy we are able to get through this together. Our soon is slipping from our fingers and we keep each other sane" I say

"If Logan doesn't get better are you sure you don't want another baby" he questions and I sigh

"I already made an appointment with my doctor to get the surgery so I can't have any more babies. Tobias I feel strongly about this. Logan is our fourth baby together. Can you please take into consideration that I am the one who has to carry the baby, and with our luck something bad would happen to our next baby anyway. Maybe we are just not meant to have children" I say

"Maybe if you weren't so negative about everything-" he starts to say but he stops.

I pull away from his embrace and cross my arms over my chest.

"Really" I say shocked

"Look I'm sorry. I didn't mean that" he says holding my waist and pulling me close to him

I lay a hand on his check and hold his face close to mine

"Please respect my choices" I whisper to him

"Okay" He whispers back and we kiss.
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Tobias pov

I lift her in my arms and carry her into the house. She runs her fingers through my hair and leans deeper and deeper into our kiss.

We're losing our son and she doesn't want more kids. We normally don't use condoms so maybe tonight can be our last shot.

She wants to get surgery to shut down her reproductive system. She's made up her mind but I haven't.

We're in the room now. Making out and things are escalating quickly but right when I'm about to start having sex with her she pulls away from our kiss and asks for a condom.

"Go get a condom. I brought some if you didn't" she says

"Really tris, were married, this isn't high school" I tell her

"I don't want any chances of getting pregnant" she says and I sigh walking to my bag and pulling one out.

What am I going to do now? I want to get her pregnant, this could be our last shot before she goes to the doctors.

She lays patiently in bed with the sheets covering her small body and waits for me to come back.

I look back over her and she smiles wrapping her arms around my neck gently. She leans up and kisses me.

"Did you put it on, are you ready" she ask

I rip open the condom that's in my hand and put it on. I rip a hole into it and give her the best smile I can.

I'm lying to my wife, there's nothing worth smiling about.

I push in and I immediately feel terrible about this.

I should be respecting my wife's wishes.

"What's wrong? You look upset" she ask me

"Nothing can we just focus on what we're doing" I say and she sighs, annoyed

I pull out and she sits up, covering herself with the sheets.

I throw the condom out and puts some pants on.

"Tobias what's wrong" she says annoyed.

"I want more kids" I blurt out

"I'm trying so hard to respect your decision but it's hard. I'm your husband I should have a say in our future" I quickly add and she looks down at her hands.

"I know I'm sorry" she says

"I made a hole in the condom just now" I confess to her and she looks at me and rolls her eyes

"I'm not even going to get upset about that because I was leaving you with no say and I guess you have a right to impregnate me without my knowledge" she says but I cut her off with a kiss

"Look I'm really sorry about that but you're not going to get pregnant. I'm sure of that. I was not very turned on a few minutes ago, I was more guilty" I say

"If I cancel the appointment can we talk about this another day. I just really want to be held more then anything right now" she tells me and I nod

"I can always hold you. That's what I'm here for" I tell her

She comes into my arms and I kiss her head.

"Can I cry" she asks

"You don't even have to ask. I got you, love" I whisper to her and she cries in my arms

I rub her back and hold her close

We have our disagreements but our love conquers all

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