Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

Abbey!

"Bye I will see you guys in about two weeks. I love you Addie be good for your dad or he will call me." I scold her yet lovingly, I kiss her little cheek and turn to Dean. "I love you, dont worry yourself I will be fine as always." I kiss him as if its good bye, this is when I am most vulnerable, I am a human for goodness sake, I never thought there would be a chance for me to go back to that but I really am, and I now realize how much I hate it, when I was pregnant with Addie my boobs didnt hurt nearly as bad as with this baby, and boy do I wish someone could rip them off.

"Dont do that..." He mutters under his breath keeping his head on mine.

"Do what? Kiss my husband?"

"Kiss as if we are saying good bye, kiss me like we will see each other again."

"Okay." I whisper kissing him more pasionatly, I already cant wait until I can get home to him again. "Here is the list of things I need you to get done while I am gone, like getting her enrolled in school shes getting used to being lazy." 

"No Im not!" Addie stomps her foot, never mind I change it, I take it back. There can only be one tempermental person in the house and thats me, I get to because Im pregnant.

"Im sorry, here and make sure you guys dont make the house a mess you know how I dont like to come home to a house like that. I love you I really need to go." I say taking my suit case and hurrying out the door with all the nessessities I need, my tumbs, my phone handy. I open my car and throw my bag in the trunk watching my baby girl stand next to Dean already crying which breaks my heart. "Addie dont cry when mommy gets back she will have Wyatt with her okay? Your best friend then all of us will go get ice cream and Dean dont ruin our suprise." I scold him, he nods his head disapointed while I back out leaving this crazy place, it gives me the creeps but as long as no one hurts my family then Im fine with living here, its pretty secure place. 

I pick up my phone while driving and catiously look through it to see the daily updates that Abbey sends me. Little pictures of her baby boy, oh if only our baby would be a boy, I want a boy so badly, but if not then we can get a dog, or a cat for Dean. Feeling my stomach turn I grab some tumbs and eat them like my little candy. These used to be my best friend when I was pregnant with Addie, all the way up till about a month and a half after i gave birth to her. They symptoms dont go away until about then. I call Abbey to see how she is doing, she hasnt sent me anything today and she usually sends me something around three in the morning because shes up with her baby. She answers imediatly. "Hey its been like forever!" She says sarcasm clearly leaking from her lips.

"Yes it has! How are you and the boys?"

"Good Wyatt loves Jason, but Jason is up constantly so I dont know how I will be able to drive."

"I can hitch your car onto mine?"

"I dont know, I dont want you to have to do that."

"Abbey, you need a break you have a five year old and a three day old, you need to relax, take a break and not stress out."

"I know its just too stressful for me anyways." She sighs and I can hear Jason begin to cry, she puts it on the speaker phone and I can hear her trying to calm him. I pay more attention to the road at this point. "Sorry bout that, it was his lunch time."

"Dont appologize its no big deal."

"So how far out are you?"

"I left the house about five minutes ago, like barely."

"Ah okay, so you will be here soon?"

"Not really, haha!"

"Sorry I forgot again, jumbled brain still."

"I understand." I say catiously getting onto the free way.

"Well I should probably go, its hard to feed one handed."

"Okay bye Abbey see you soon." I hang up then soon turn on my music, my jam, my mamma jam! Its so weird, I dont really feel that Im human other than the stronger symptoms but other than that I feel the same. Shaking my head I play my music singing along only wishing Dean was right beside me singing along or laughing at how badly I do sing. 

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After a full and long torturous day I pull into our old neiborhood, its so very late right now, or maybe early? Locking my car I dont even bother to grab my bag, looking to my phone I know that Abbey has to be awake. Knocking on the door a few moments late it swings open to see her holding Jason with a little binki in his mouth  sleeping soundly. "Yay! I am so glad you made it!" She squeals pulling me inside then in for a hug. I giggle hugging her back carefully and then pull apart to look at the sleeping little man.

"Oh he is just adorable!"

"Thanks, hes my little monster." She smiles weakly, I lock the door behind me when she leads me into her cluttered house. "Im sorry I didnt have enough time nor energy to clean our spare room so you can have the couch if you dont mind, I have some pillows and blankets here." She shows me two blankets and two pillows.

"Its fine Abbey Im not needy! Besides I can take Jason from you tonight so you can rest."

"I would love that he just loves to be breast fed and he wont take a bottle, so thanks though."

"Its no problem really Im a bit rusty anyways."

"Not for long." She nudges my shoulder jokingly. "I better get some sort of rest tonight see you in the morning." She smiles before leaving, I just take the pillows and blankets drape them over me getting comfortable and fall asleep.