Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

Just Remember

I wake up in a strange place and I dont know where I am, or what happened. Im laying in a very uncomfortable bed. I look around and the room is empty and thats when I notice I am in a hospital and I have needles in my arms. "No!" I scream ripping out the needles along with everything else, I have to get out of here I dont know whats happening! A little girl comes running in tears in her eyes but looking so happy.

"Mommy!" She screams making me scream in fear, she stops suddenly and screams and sobbs, I dont know who anyone is or how I got here. People come in and grab her shoving her out of my room and they try to calm me down, all I know is Dean, he is on my mind and I need to find him.

"No let me go! I need to find Dean!" I scream against them, they are holding me down restraining me but I thrash harder and harder.

"Calm down you are hurting your baby!" They scream at me but I only feel frightened, slowly looking down to confurm I see that I am pregnant! 

"No!" I scream catching them by supprised I shove and kick running off my bed I hold up a chair so I back away from them.

"Calm down, do you know your name?" The doctors ask me holding up my hands, their positions indicate they are afraid of me and that I am dangerous.

"I-I dont know!" I shout throwing the chair as hard as I can I book it out of here running down the halls in bare feet, they slap against the tile letting everyone know where I am going. Soon someone grabs me from behind holding me tightly while I thrash, the next instant a needle is shoved into my neck and I collapse in their arms weak, unable to move properly.

"Take her back to her bed and chair her, she is a danger." A female says, he picks me up easilly and my head hangs in his arms. 

"What happened to you?" He mutters and I stay quiet, the door is spinning, how can the door be moving! 

"No..." I mutter not wanting to do anything but get out of here, I dont feel safe and all these people have expectations of me that I dont understand. I just want Dean, he will know what to do. "I want Dean..." He places me in the bed strapping me in tightly hurting my wrists and ankles.

"Who is that?" He asks me, he presses a button next to my arm and soon more people come in, oh my gosh more people! My breathing quickens watching them come near me, they are all coming too close.

"Why did you ring for us?" 

"She remembered someone, Dean." No, just go away from me, just go! They place an oxygen mask over my face but I feel so confined, I cant do anything, I cant move at all.

"No! No, please dont hurt me!" Tears stream down my face, another gentleman enters the room in street clothes, he looks so depressed and torn, I cant describe the emotion he wears, but I know who he is, I know him. "Dean!" I shout with joy, someone I know, someone I remember is here. His face lights up and he hurries over to me grabbing my hand but for some reason it flinches away, but I want to hold his hand.

"I am so sorry Sloan, I didnt mean to hurt you, it was an accident, I didnt mean to hurt you." It looks like he is about to break down again, it seems as if something shattered him inside, he looks so genuine it hurts my heart, for some strange reason rage fills me, but I dont want to be angry, I want to be happy he is here with me. "It just happened..." I begin to sob and I turn away from him, why is he saying he hurt me? A tray drops and I jump terrified jumping in the bed making it shake.

"Its okay." The doctors say, it was a nurse who dropped it, she is quickly picking all the stuff she dropped on the floor and placing it onto the metal tray. "Sloan, now that we know that is your name, we have done tests on you while you were unconcious, nothing that would harm your baby, you are suffering from heart break and stress, we gave you some stress medication and should be taking affect soon, we dont know how you got the black eye though. Do you remember how?" He asks me and Dean looks down ashamed before he turns to the doctors.

"I hit her, we got into a huge fight yesterday, I punched her, I just blew up." He looks back into my eyes so upset with himeself, the doctors are taken aback and stare at him in shock before the nurse leaves quickly on que. "Sloan what do you want me to do? Leave or leave and take Addie? I already know that its best for you to not see me anymore."

"I dont remember any of that, my eye doesnt even hurt, the only thing that does is my heart." I say and the doctor panics checking my monitor and printed sheet.

"Your heart looks fine."

"My feelings, can you leave us please?" I ask him and he eyes Dean warrily before leaving, I can tell he did not want to do that at all.

"I know, I said some pretty harsh stuff that I did not mean at all, I was having a horrible day and when I said that stuff I was talking about a girl at work, she tried to have sex with me and I was scared on how to tell you, honestly, but that was no way for me to take my anger out on you and I know that, I should have also never ever hit you, I just cant live with myself. Yesterday was supposed to be our day, we found out our childs gender, but thats also why I missed the appoitment. My phone went off to remind me while she was trying and that snapped me back reminding me that I had a wife and daughter and we were going to find out our other. I didnt know what to do so I freaked and shoved her out and worked my ass off to forget about what happend. Now I just made things worse, a girl came onto me, I missed the appoitment, I yelled at you, and I hit you. I am a horrible husband." He sobs laying his face in my bed and sobs, everything comes flooding back, staring down at him my heart now does physically hurt, all that happened? The alarm had to snap him back? So he was enjoying it?

"Am I not good enough? Is our sex not good enough? Does my body turn you off or something? Is it because I am pregnant? Why would you need an alarm to make you realize that I am here, along with your daughters? Why on earth would you call me such harsh things too? No matter what I would never call you anything like that, ever! I loved you once Dean and that cost me my memmories and probably almost killed her. I dont think I can risk another persons death?" He looks at me so shocked that I am actually engaged in this conversation and actually remember what happened, but I do, and it hurts me, I want to sob and sob but I dont think I can ever trust him again.

"I know I deserve that but Im not ready please dont say it?" He pleads and I know what he is talking about but I do think it needs to be said and done.

"Dean we need a divorce."

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Sorry it took so long to update, for me it was. But I didnt know what to write and I want to make the story interesting and not the same, their same boring natural lives, so if you have any suggestions I would love them, I know I ask that alot but I seriously cant do it alone, alot of the suggestions are from @WorleyHeather so thank you so much!!! 

I will try to update but I have friends that we have known since my dad was 19 here from England and are staying for two weeks and two of their kids are my age and they happen to be boys only one do I take the interest in, ANY WAYS.... if you have any more suggestions please please let me know! Im really sad I made Dean and Sloan get into a fight, especially physically, cause now there is a slim chance they can get together again because that isnt rational at all and she has to be like mentally ill inorder for her to do that. She cant get together with Eli cause he is psycho and killed Carry but she needs someone.

And if you are a guy reading this, I want to let you know its not okay to hit girls in anyway even if its a joking manner, same for you girls! It goes  both ways! Do NOT hit each other I dont know how bad that hurts me when I see that happening or when I hear about it, it damages people and they can never recover even if you do it once.

So getting away from that huge vent of mine Im super tired so I tend to babble alot and I know no one reads these A/Ns cause I dont all the time. But if you have suggestions please PM me or comment either way I like them all! So Comment and Vote I love you all! Thanks for the support! Until next time.