Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

Is This It?

I shove past him grabing my chash, and phone and walk out of the door when I hear Dean running after me. "Please dont do this I am so sorry I didnt mean it."

"If you didnt mean it Dean you wouldnt have said it to me! You dont understand what I am going through, I try to hide it but this pregnancy sucks for me okay? You dont know my mood swings or my cravings, you missed the damn appoitment today! You were supposed to be there with me! These months are mine because I am creating our baby and yet you call me a bitch? I just cant even look at you after you called me that. You went too far, I dont think I can forgive you for that. Im taking custody over our kids since you feel so strongly that everything is about me and that I need to spend more time with our children. Then I will, you wont be able to see us ever again!" I snarl running down the steps, I run to the curb but he wont give up at all he is relentless.

"I know that I know nothing and your not communicating with me anything I would understand if you would just talk to me about it."

"Look it up on the internet if you feel that way!" 

"You cant leave, you cant take my children away from me."

"Watch me." He growls and before I can react he punches me in the eye making me scream in pain grabbing my eye I hunch over. Gripping my eye in pain I huff looking back up to him even more hurt. "I cant belive you would go that far." I sob and scream at him my heart shattering in pain.

"I wont, I will fight for you like I always do even if you push me away."

"Im pushing you away right now because you called me a bitch and you freaking hit me! Your own wife who is pregnant with your daughter!"

"You dont even want it!"

"Go to hell!" I bring my fist back punching him hard in the nose as hard as I possibly can and he stumbles out cursing more grabbing his gushing nose, my fist hurts terribly and people around are watching us in shock. "You want Addie take her, I need a break from everything since you dont think I am a stable enough mother!" I shout spitting at his feet and I disapear into the croud, tears running down my face, I cant belive my life is playing out this way. I love him, I always and forever will but its clear with his feelings that he is not in love with me.

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Walking all day and night it begins to poor down raining, my face stone hard yet tears flow down my face joining in the freezing cold rain, I grab my arms shivering walking down the sidewalk, today has broke my heart, it shattered it I have lost all hope for anything now, someone up there is out to get me and theyve won. A woman comes out closeing and locking up her shop, she locks it and turns to her small car when she sees me and she looks concerned. "Oh my gosh! What are you doing out here in the cold?" She asks me, coming up to me in to pouring rain, my hair is matted to my face and my clothes cling to me. I cant hold it together any more, I break down sobbing and she grabs my trembling arms and pulls me into hers letting me sob into her arms, the people here are so sweet. "You need food and rest, come on, I will take you home, my daughter is a midwife, shes twenty two she will check out your baby." She pulls away and pulls me into her car. I sob and sob as she helps me into her car and closes my door hurrying to her side of the car and shivers, she starts her car and blasts the heat. "Love why are you out there?" She pulls out and quickly drives away.

"I got into a fight with my husband." I sob terribly holding my mouth and my stomach, I havent felt her move since the fight, what if the stress killed my little girl, I can have that happening again. 

"Oh love I am so sorry, we will be home shortly." She rounds the corner and parks up on the curb. "Were here." She says and I slowly get out of the car, she meets me on my side and helps me stand straight, the guilt is so heavy on my shoulders that I cant stand straight, she closes my door and locks her car with a high pitched honk she helps me walk up the steep stone steps to her home. Once she opens it I am greeted by warmth. She kicks off her shoes and I do the same shivvering even more I hear thumping coming down the steps and I see a teenaged boy coming thumping down but once he sees me he stares at me slightly alarmed.