Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

Say What?

I feel a small goop pile up in my pants, looking down I see blood trickling down my pants staining them red. I gasp hearing Dean beat the crap out of Eli, Dean gets back in the car and all I can do is stare down to the blood staining my pants, this cannot be good at all. "Everyone okay?" He asks panting, he locks the car door and he looks at me then catches the drift and looks down to my pants.

"All but one." I mutter placing my hand on my small stomach, it cant be gone, I know that bleeding means misscarrage, and shouldnt I be out of that stage?

"Okay, hold on I will take you to the Doctor!" He quickly turns the car around and drives quickly down to the hospital, tears fall down my face, the one time I said yes to this my baby has to die, why is this stuff happening to us? I just dont understand we are in this world to protect ourselves, and yet we always get hurt? We dont hurt people unless they hurt us! Dean pulls us up to the clinic, Addie and Wyatt hop out and follow us in quickly, right when we get in and the people on call notice us they quickly rush us into a room. My hands tremble with fear, the doctors usher me to a bed, they slide off my pants and underwear and put a blanket over me, I raise my shirt and they quickly start and ultrasound, Dean comes up to me holding my hand quickly. I dont to anything but stare into his eyes terrified. 

"Im sorry." I say to him a tear sliding down my face again, I close my eyes and cry silently while the doctors get me situated and find the babys heart beat. We just had an ultrasound yesterday and they baby was fine, now today its dead...I cant handle one more thing dieing. 

"Dont appologize this wasnt your fault, it must have been too soon." He bends down to my level and I open my eyes looking into his soft ones and I can tell he is trying to hold in his tears so the doctors dont question it. 

"It was my fault, Ave was my fault this was my fault. They just keep dieing and I cant take it." I sob, he presses his forhead to mine and stares into my eyes confidently.

"Ave was most certainly not your fault, it happens and you cant keep blaming yourself for that. Stop beating yourself up about that. Now look at the screen." He says, I look over to the screen to see my little baby just laying there, but the doctor turns a nob and soon the room is filled with a loud and steady heart beat. My shaky hand rushes to my face and I sob into it with relief, its okay, my baby is okay. 

The fear that went through me was the same seeing Ave purple and not moving, I look at my little baby and its okay. The doctor sighs turning off the machine and wipes off my stomach. "Your baby is completly fine, although that was alot of blood we will need to look out for, bleeding during the pregnancy is normal, you are passed the rate to have a miscarrage so now if it were to pass it would be a still birth. We will watch over your baby closly so come in next week okay?" He asks, I nod my head and carefully sit up. 

"Thank you so much."

"No problem just try not to be too stressed okay? Here are some prenatal vitamins I neglected to give you yesterday. Maybe alittle alone time with your husband might help." He says whispering because the kids are still in here.

"Thank you so much again." He hands me a pair of shorts and I slip them on hiding myself from the kids and we all walk out of the clinic with releif. 

"I told you, our baby is okay." Dean kisses my lips softly touching my bump, I can still feel blood seeping into my shorts.

"I need to go home, Im still bleeding." I look down to see blood trailing down my leg still.

"Okay lets go, you need to rest too, you look so tired." He guids me to the car with one hand on the base of my back and helps me into the car. 

"Sorry about your seat." I mutter before he closes the door and he just laughs outwardly making me blush.

"Oh dont be sorry about it! We had a scare I will get it out." He closes my door and helps the kids into the car and they are laughing at each other over something, I turn around and they are making faces at each other, I cant help but laugh at how adorable that is. 

"Mom! Stop looking at us! Its secret!" Addie whines at me and I give her my mother glare and she cowers away from me hiding her face in her seat, Dean closes the door and climbs in the car staring at me smiling widely.

"You have no idea how much I love you." He leans in kissing me softly, I chuckle kissing him back and we pull apart while we drive back home. The kids play in the back laughing and telling each other jokes five year olds say. As we pull into the driveway the sickness takes over, before he can even stop the car I am darting out of it running into the house and into the kitchen and vomiting into the sink. I couldnt make it to the bathroom and now this sucks, the horrid smell has me heaving myself against the counter roughly. I turn on the fosit to wash away my vomit. I feel cool hands slip up my shirt, it calms my stomach and I sigh feeling the nasea slip away. Turning around I see Carry there with her face looking hurt, her eyes are soft and concerned.

"Why is there blood?" She asks me softly motioning to my legs, she doesnt remove her hands, they stay cool and its really relaxing.

"The doctor said it was normal, I have to take a bath. I didnt mean to scare you Im sorry." I say turning completly around forcing her hands off.

"Its okay, I was concerned, I will help you with you bath." She says, both of us walk up the stairs, I rub my stomach smiling, I cant wait to see what we are having. Both of us walk into my room and the air feels so cool setting my stomach at ease completly. She leads me into my bathroom and guids me over to the shower thing pressing another button sides slide up forming a large pool thing. 

"This place gets better and better." I say, she laughs and turns on the shower cool so my stomach doesnt get disrupted again.

"I wanted to talk to you about me being a witch." She says feeling the water even though its not all the way up. I slide off my gross clothes and get in anyways feeling the cold water ease my stomach, I sigh and relax against the cool edge. I nod to her and I hear her sigh. "Im dead."