Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

Forgive Him

I lay in Deans arms on the bed and he holds me tightly while I sob into his chest, I love him so much and I hate that we fighted, it was so stupid too it was over a dog! "Dean I cant do life without you, I cant be a single mother I need you, I want you, I love you."

"You wont do it without me, I am here for you, you are so beautiful and you are such a great wife, and a perfect mother, look at Addie, look how well you raised her! That was all you, so dont doubt for one minute that you are not a good mother."

"I am a horrible mother, I always say no that Addie doesnt live a life! Dean my depression is back, Im so grumpy."

"Well you dont have to be any more, Im here for you, just relax take one thing at a time, you already have enough on your plate and you are handling it so well." He holds me stroking my hair, I dont know why we got into that fight it was just rediculous.

"Dean your the best husband anyone could have wished for, you dont deserve someone like me, your right I only think about myself." 

"Just stop Sloan, stop thinking of the negitive, I love you and I am so sorry about our fight. You are so wonderful and strong, you are our protector, I can hardly protect us all, you dont deserve a weak man like me." I turn and look up into his eyes and they are filled with pure pain. I lean up gently and kiss his lips softly, missing his tender touch and the taste of his lips I deepen the kiss moving up to him I sit on his lap. His hands slip up my shirt roaming around my torso, his hands rub against my belly and the baby presses against him shoving him away. His hands trail upwards to my very tender breasts and I flinch away. I pull away to appologize.

"Sorry...they hurt."

"Im sorry, now where were we?"

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"Mommy." I hear Addie whine, she whimpers and I hear her shift in the bed, my eyes dart open and I quickly scramble up and throw my clothes on and shove Dean awake.

"Hurry shes waking up." I mutter pulling on my clothes and readjusting my hair, I look to Addie and shes slowly waking up. I rush over to her and stroke her hair out of her face and shush her. "Hey baby girl, did you sleep well?" I kneel down next to her and I ask her happily, her eyes wake up and they are puffy from sleep, she looks up to me.

"Dont touch me mommy, I dont like it." Ugh great her scedual. 

"Baby be happy okay? Mommy is happy, guess who is here?" She doesnt sit up she only stays laying down and she still looks so tired.

"Who? Is my sister here?" She sits up and she yawns hugly, rubbing her eyes adorably, it makes my heart melt, tears well up in my eyes and I start to cry, she quickly moves her hands from her face and she hugs me imediatly. "Im sorry mommy I didnt mean to be rude, please dont cry." Dean quickly comes over to me and hugs me too. "Daddy!"

"Hi sweety!" He kisses her and she lets go clinging to him. "Sloan whats wrong?"

"Shes just so cute! I just love her so much." I cry into the bed now, why does Adelaide have to be so cute?

"Hunny, its okay." He chuckles rubbing my back softly, up and down. 

"I know I just love her so much." 

"You seem so tired, I saw a carnaval down town, I will take her and you can rest,  you need a break, plus I want to have a little daddy daughter time." He says to me calmly and weakly, I look over to him and I sniff nodding to him.

"Okay, I could use my own day." 

"Alright sounds good, keep your phone on so I can call you to check up on you okay?" He says smiling, Addie is holding onto him tightly and I can see that her smile on her face has grown wider and that she is really excited for tonight. 

"Okay I will. Have fun, and be safe okay?" I give her a small kiss on her cheek, and she gives me a small hug too. "Dont let her eat too much sugar I cant be cleaning up puke right now, and dont let her out of your sight." 

"Dont worry I have this, now relax and go to sleep or do whatever you want to relax."

"Brush her hair first and pull it back, have fun." I stand up and they go to the bathroom to do what I asked, I lay down on the bed again putting pillows in between my legs and a bunch behind my back so it supports it. I turn on the tv and start watching Supernatural, Ive never been interested in it until now, I just watch until I hear the hotell room door close and Im all alone and to myself, its total bliss.

The baby moves and Ave apears at the foot of my bed watching the show. "Oh they are so hot mom arent they?" 

"Hi baby girl."

"Mom Im not a baby." She says to me jokingly, and I pout, she scoots behind me and cuddles behind me making me so happy. "How is my sister in there? Is she kicking?" She puts her hand around me and touches my stomach. "This is so cool! I can check this off my bucket list?" I turn to her scolding her. 

"Not funny."

"I wasnt trying to be, I try to do a bunch of things before my next life, such as when I become an adult as a ghost? Yeah I wanted to touch a pregnant persons belly, check!"

"Well go ahead knock yourself out."

"Hey so I was wondering do you like the name Trella? Have you changed your mind?"

"No I dont want a T name it has to be an A." 

"Anne? Asa? Anna? Im dieing here."

"Again seriously?" 

"I am not meaning it! Stop taking things so literally."

"I like Azaleas, and Alayna."

"OO I like those! I will go tell her!" She soon zaps away and I find myself able to relax and I instantly fall asleep.

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Hey guys, please comment, Im sorry its taking so long to update, Ill try its still really hectic which sucks but I find myself in la-la land all the time which are in my stories, so Ill try to update, but once this reaches chapter fourty Ill make a third book. So please comment and vote please!!! I love you all and all your support!!!! Tell me what you think!!!