Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

Tell Her

Walking up the stairs to my room I have begun to feel really sick, Dean agreed to get Addie ready for school and take her until I have started to feel better, which sucks, I havent vomited or anything I just feel super sick all the time now. I slide into bed all comfortable and warm and I can hear Dean down stairs talking to Addie, telling her to finish her breakfast, if I have to go down there then I am going to be one un happy mommy. 

"Hey Sloan, sorry to bother you but do you want something for your morning sickness?" Carry asks pearing her head inside my room, I groan in my pillow.

"Go away." I mutter and I hear her quickly leave closing my door behind her, I like it when people are afraid of me, it makes me happy because then people wont drag their feet when I tell them to do something, I am in charge of this house, I pretty much do everything around here, except for now, Im too miserable to even want to move. My appoitment today was awsome, but then I got home and started feeling sick so joy for me. I cant wait until we tell Addie the news that she is going to be an older sister, and Im already in the second trimester too! Im three months away from being in the third and final trimester! This is so exciting I just need to stop thinking or else I wont feel better, in the end this is all worth it, my fingers are crossed that this baby makes it. My negitive thoughts come rolling in why dont you welcome to my brain. 

'I wont let anything happen to this one Sloan, but if you die, so will your baby.' A raspy and terrorizing voie enters my head, am I hearing things? This isnt supposed to happen until the third trimester when I get a bit insane. Well with Ave I was just a big ball of gump, always sulking and depressed all the time. I didnt even know why which made me more depressed. Okay voices in my head shut the hell up so I can get some rest! 

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"Sloan do you want some lunch? You havent eaten anything today?" Dean asks from the doorway and I groan, I was just hitting the nice part of the dream, I was jumping on cotton candy.

"Go away." I mutter in my pillow, I dont want to be woken up, are you kidding me people if I want something I will go and get it, but if I am sleeping and Im pregnant, with morning sickness and acid reflex.

"You need to eat something."

"Dean for the last time ever, go away, Im not hungry, I dont want any freaking food, what I do want is to stop vomiting up the food I was supposed to eat and relax and get some sleep." I try to say nicely but it ends up being the tone I yell at Addie for before answering the phone politely. He rolls his eyes and closes the door, I turn on my fan letting it blow cool air on my steaming body, and I drift silently back to sleep to my cotton candy dream.

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My stomach grumbles loudly and I roll over to my back pouting, I dont want food, I dont want to get up at all. But I need to, I need to see my baby girl. I slide out of the comfort of my bed and make my way down the stairs feeling my stomach protest but I need food, more like the baby needs food. Oh my little baby inside of me, its so small and cute, I just cant wait to meet it. I make my way down the stairs and into the kitchen to see Abbey eating a sandwich and helping Wyatt with his homework, Addie is sitting next to him. Dean is sitting across from Abbey helping Addie with her homework as well. I sift through the fridge and find nothing appetizing. I slump to the pantry and instantly I lunge for the pretzels, I take the bag and walk over to the table kissing Addie on her head then slide in next to Dean. I take his hand squeezing it softly and he turns to me, he looks offended. "Im sorry, I didnt mean to snap, I havent felt this way ever, I am so miserable." I say taking out a pretzel and eating it slowly tasting the salt  makes my stomach settle slightly.

"I know your sick, and Im sorry for interupting your sleep."

"I shouldnt have treated you that way, I will work on it, I just dont know that Im doing it sometimes." I lean in and give him a small kiss before turning down to Addie.

"How was your day at school?" I ask her, shes in the middle of coloring her shapes and she only nods to me, how am I supposed to know what a nod means? "Addie can you blow me a kiss I missed sending you off today." She does a small one but doesnt let me see her face at all, shes hiding something from me and I know it. "Addie." I get a bit firmer and by now Dean is curious too, he touches the underneath of her chin making her look up to us and she has tears running down her face along with a giant bruise around her eye with a small cut on her eye brow. "Oh my gosh!" I dart out of my chair and I pick her up taking her over to the sink, I wet a wash cloth and dab her eye. "Addie why didnt you tell me this was happening?"

"I didnt want you to be mad at me." She cries, I finish wiping her eye and I grab a small ice pack from the freezer wrapping it in a towel and put it to her black eye.

"I would never be mad at you! You can tell me anything, no one hurts you okay? You dont let anyone touch you. This is not okay that someone hurt you. Who did this?" I ask pulling her into my chest I hug her tightly and let her cry into my chest, Dean comes over and rubs her back softly while we let her settle down, tears fall down my face too making it so hard, someone hurt my little girl, she is so stinking nice to people why on earth would someone lay a finger on her?

"Sloan, dont worry, we can go to her school tomorrow morning with her and talk to her teacher." Dean now stars rubbing my hair down the back smoothing it out.

"This makes no sence though! Why would someone want to hurt her like this?"

"He hit me mama. He called me a freak." She cries into my chest, a boy did this to her! She isnt going to want to trust one after having this done to her. This makes me so mad yet it breaks my heart to peices.

"Who was he?"

"Tyler, hes in second grade, he always makes fun of me, calling me names, pulling my hair." She whimpers burrying her face in my chest, I think some good news might lighten her situation, give her something to look forward to might take her mind off of this.

"Do you want to hear some good news?" I look over to Dean, he nods his head smileing. Addie looks up to me her blood tears streaming down her face still, she sniffs slightly and I pick her up and all three of us walk up to my room, I set her on our bed and Dean and I kneel down in front of it, she looks excited.

"Are you ready? If you dont like it then you can tell us and we can talk about it okay? We want you to tell us everything okay?" Dean asks her taking one of her small hands and I take the other.

"Addie your going to be a big sister." I say, her face lights up and she darts into my arms hugging me tightly.

"Im going to be a big sister!" She screams, I hug her back too so happy that shes enjoying this, I hope that when the baby comes she still does feel the same way about it. She pulls away and Dean and I sit next to her, she climbs up on my lap and looks down to my stomach, touching it softly. "When will I be able to meet it? Do you know if its a brother or sister?" She asks so excitedly giving my chin little kisses.

"A few more months, towards the end of school, and no we dont know yet but next month we might be able to see what we are having." She smiles brightly and kisses me before hopping onto Deans lap kissing him too and hugging him tightly.

"Mommy is having a baby, did you know this too?" Dean laughs giving her a big hug.

"Yes I did."

"Where do they come from?" Dean and I both look to each other unsure of what we should say, both of us blushing madly.