Stable {Book 2 of Living Alone}

No Guide To Parenting

"What are you talking about?" I ask her trying to be calm and not to panic by all the random things she is saying, I dont think she is crazy or anything I love her to peices and is the most rational todler I know, we have been through alot but she has never once talked about things like this especially in public.

"I saw it, thats how Jason dies, because we crash."  She mutters not looking up from her blanket, the food cart comes around and stops at us.

"Is there anything I can get for you?" She asks with a fake smile obviously, she leans down enough so she can hear us properly. I turn to Wyatt and his cheeks blush.

"Do you want anything?" I ask him, he nods his head shy hiding behind Dean, Dean leans down so he can hear what he is saying. 

"Do you have any sort of milk?" He asks the lady ands he looks in the small portable refridgerater. She nods handing him a milk box with a small straw. Dean takes it prepairing it for him and the lady hands him fruit snacks.

"Anything for you?"

"Can I have a coke no ice?" 

"I will have the same." I say and she preairs us what we asks handing us the full cans and us peanuts.

"Mommy I want orange juice, our special orange juice." She mutters looking up into my eyes through the crack of the blanket.

"They dont have that kind." She frowns under the blanket and holds onto me tighter tensing again.

"She will have orange juice please." She hands me the juice box and the fuit snacks and I take them thankfully. She moves along to the next row and I give Addie her box and she doesnt move from under the blanket but she takes it and drinks it hiding under the blanket. "Are you good? I know its not your favorite but its just to hold you over?" I ask her stroking her back softly while she finishes her juice.

"Yes mommy, but why wont my sibling move in you?" She asks me stroking my stomach again softly, she keeps her head firmly planted on my chest.

"You wont be able to feel it until later, it doesnt move all the time." 

"When will it?" She pouts but its so adorable, I love her so much.

"Later on hunny, maybe next month? Or two?" She nods handing me back her empty box, I take it placing it on my plane tray and she eats her fruit snacks, Wyatt keeps Dean entertained. 

"When will I be able to see it?" 

"Not for quite a while, why dont you get some rest? I will be here the whole time, I wont let you go." 

"I dont want to close my eyes, I feel sick mommy." I quickly unbuckle my belt quickly and stand up making my way to the bathroom shimmying past people I head into the bathroom and lock the door, its very small and tight in here and she already starts freaking out.

"No, no dont freak out, were in here if you feel sick, you need to throw up." I say calmly but she only freaks out more.

"No, no I dont want to be in here mommy take me out of here!" She tries scrambling away from me out of my grasp she tries getting free.

"Baby, calm down, everything is going to be okay, Im right here." I say soothingly but she just breaks down even more. I unlock the door and open it so it seems like we have more room. "Look, look were not trapped in here, were going to be okay." She looks out and holds me tighter clinging me for dear life, I fall back on my butt and just hold her trying to calm her down, I dont want her throwing up on me but if it has to happen then it will.

"Mommy take me out of here please, Im scared." 

"Okay." I say softly sitting up I take her out of the bathroom and sit back down in my seat, I take the barf bag and have it accessible to her.

"I want to go home, I dont like this, please I am scared." She trembles again, I set her head back down on my chest but she doesnt calm down much she grabs my shirt and I turn over to Dean.

"I dont know what to do, I thought she would be fine, I dont know if I can last the rest of the flight."

"Here I'll take her." He holds out his hands but she grips my shirt tighter.

"No dont let me go!" She shouts making people around me groan with annoyance out loud.

"Okay Im not, what do you want me to do?" I ask her and she trembles again, I hold her tighter as tight as I can so she can calm down and it seems to work slightly.

"I want you to walk with me." 

"Set you down?"

"No, no please dont, just dont set me down." I nod, this is embarrasing, I want to keep her calm and try to keep the rest of the flight comfortable but she is just terrified and I am never ever getting on a plane again.

"Sloan you dont have to do this if you dont want to?" Dean says and I just stare at him as if he is mad.

"I do have to or else the whole plane is going to kill me." I say sliding out into the isle and walk back and forth, up and down past people as they glare at me as if Im nuts. I spot Abbey and she looks at me confused holding Jason.

"Why are you doing that?" She whispers to me and the people sitting next to her look up to me questioning why I am doing this also.

"She is terrified." Abbey gives me a sympathetic look and I just shrug keep on walking and people glare at me making me feel so picked on its not my fault I am doing what ever another mother would do for their child trying to make her happy and please her so I dont embarrass myself more, what ever I do I will be judged trying to please my daughter. So I pick up the intercom despite the angry stewardess. "Hi everyone im the mother that keeps walking up and down the isles, I am doing that to please my daughter so she doesnt disrupt you all, so I would appreciate you to stop glaring at me, I am minding my own buisness and I am not hurting you, but you are all hurting me so stop it! Do what I am doing and mind your own freaking buisness so I dont disrupt your flight! Because you are certainly disrupting mine!" I bark into the phone thing and everyone turns back to me staring at me in shock, Dean comes over to me clearly looking upset.

"Sloan you have got to stop doing that, its embarrasing to me as well." He says sternly, I just gawk at him.

"Why dont you stand up for me! Everyone is glaring at me because I am walking! I am walking to help her! If I dont help her then she will probabbly have a mental break down and pass out from hyperventalating. I am helping my daughter and you should support me now get out of my way!" I shove past him and continue walking with her, I just cant wait until we land.