Interrupted Fate

Chapter 26 : Regrets

Looking to Maddox then back at Grayson I open my mouth only to close it. Taken back by what Grayson said it takes me a moment to process what he said. And once I do I'm furious.

"Are you fucking serious?! Grayson leave right now. Give me my apartment key while you're at it." I say shoving him back towards the door.

"You can't be fucking serious Ivy I've had a long day plus most my shit is here." He says as if that's going to stop me from kicking him out.

"I don't give a fuck I'll pack it up,..actually better yet." I hold my finger up to him basically running into my room and going straight to my closet.

Snatching Graysons clothes off of hangers they go flinging everywhere. I could care less when one hits my chest pretty hard. I pile his shit in the middle of my room surprised he hasn't came in here to stop me. Once done I pick it all up and go back to the living room.

Grayson sits on the couch flipping tv channels while Maddox stands leaning against one of the hallways walls arms crossed. He probably stopped Grayson from going to me.

"Here." The soft thud of his clothes on the floor gets Graysons attention. "Take your shit and leave. Now Grayson." I say pointing to the door. He just sits there looking at me over his shoulder.

"I'll throw it off my balcony or better yet I'll call the cops I don't want you here!"

Rolling his eyes he walks over to me. Looking me in the eyes his face angers. He has no right to be mad at me. Before I can say something my face gets jerked to the side.

As if everything is going in slow motion I bring my hand up to my face. My cheek is hot and stinging from where Grayson just smacked me.

Shock that's all I can register in my brain. By the time I look back to him he's on the floor covered by Maddox who's throwing punches anywhere he can land them.

"What?" I look around the room again trying to gather myself.

Did that really just happen?

I come to when I hear Grayson cough. Looking down again he's bleeding from his nose and mouth.

"Maddox." Rushing over I grab his arm mid swing getting elbowed but stopping it. "Maddox stop!" Yelling so loud my throat burns.

He does and gets up slowly. " Ivy I'm so sorry i didn't mean it! And you! You're no fucking man. Putting your hands on a woman." Maddox sneers at Grayson who's trying to get up.

"What do you think you just did? Don't leave me Ivy." Grayson cry's to me reaching a hand out towards me. "Please don't leave me." Tears fall down his already bruising face. Letting go of Maddox I help him up.

What he did wasn't right but I still care for him.

"I'm leaving with Maddox and whenever I come back home. You and your stuff need to be gone." I say straight to his face. His right eye is swelling shut, and his bloody nose has slowed down.

"Go then. It will always be him. I'll never fully have you, because no matter how much i want to love you. It will always be Maddox." Blood from his mouth splatters on my face while he talks making me flinch.

"I'd watch it or you won't be able to walk out of here." Maddox says softly grabbing my arm and pulling me to him. Holding me close.

"Bye Grayson." I whisper as I tug Maddox with me out the door. My heart breaking little by little each step I took.

The car ride is quiet. Silently I cry looking out the window. My hand in a fist on my lips keeping my lips shut. Not letting my sobs escape. The street lights blurry from the tears in my eyes. Tears that don't seem to want to stop.

It shouldn't hurt this much.

Breaking up with Grayson shouldn't hurt this much because I never loved him right?

Wrong.

Because I did love him. In my own fucked up way. I loved his as family he was my person. The one I could count on. Then we started dating and we went to hell. Fuck did we go to hell. He wanted me for me but I couldn't love him. Not they way he wanted me to.

Grayson was right. Graysons always right when it comes to me. He knows me the best.

Knew...

He knew me the best.

My cries stop as I continue to watch the scenery flash by the window. Soon heavy eyes and a heavy heart have me lulled to sleep by the cars motion.

My name is whispered a few times before I slowly blink my eyes open. "Ivy. We're here come on." Maddox says unbuckling my seatbelt while I rub my eyes. They sting from the crying.

"Where is here?" I ask sleepily. Yawning and stretching my back cracks. Which Maddox must have heard because he laughs grabbing my hand helping me out his car.

"I figured you needed some fresh are so here we are." Getting out of the car looking around my eyes are quick to take in the most beautiful scenery there could be.

Maddox parked on a mountain top far up. And you can see all the city lights. The cars driving look like little illuminated lightning bugs buzzing by.

"It's beautiful Maddox." Sitting on the hood of his car he sits next to me.

"What did Grayson mean when he said it would always be me?" Sighing I lay back. The car hood still hot from the long drive up here.

"He meant that no matter how much I try to move on my heart will be yours."

This time Maddox sighs laying back next to me looking up to the sky. "But your heart was never mine to begin with."

"It was. I just never willingly gave it. I was hesitant, scared, nieve, young. The list could go on I read your letter Maddox. I read it and I was so foolish to never go to you. I-i." Tears once again fall down my cheeks landing on the cars hood with soft patter.

"I could have saved myself a lot of heart ache and pain if I just went to you Maddox. But I was stubborn and pig headed mad that you left. I regretted kicking you out the moment you shut the door behind you. And since you've been back Grayson had every right to be weary. Because my feelings for you... they never went away."

I rub my hands down my face fearful to look at him but I muster up all the courage I can to look at him. He's already looking at me the starts above shining in his green irises. His face stoic.

"I will always care about you Maddox I have for the past eight years since I fucked up."