Sanders Sides School For The Troubled Youth

Chapter 3: Roman

Song: Oh ana by Mother Mother

Tw: Eating disorder!(The character in this has a pretty extreme habits of fasting but like you can eat every day and still have an ed just a lil nice disclaimer there), Self hate, Remus being Remus so sexual innuendos, implied past self harm, not a trigger but I'm sorry for the googled translated Spanish

The first thing most people noticed with Roman was that he was quite handsome. His mom came from puerto Rico and his dad from Florida so he had olive skin and beauty marks in just the right places. His eyes were a brown almost red tone and his cheekbones were quite prominent. When he went to a normal school he was one of the most popular in class. The few times he let girls into his bed when he was still trying to fix the part of him he thought was broken aka his asexuality they all frowned a bit when they saw him shirtless. He took it as them thinking he was fat. They just got worried about how even a person without their glasses could count every one of his ribs. 

Not as many noticed how he had doodles on his arms and deliberate markings on his hands as if he was counting something. Or how he had to organize the food on his plate before he ate it. Or how some part of him was always moving even when it looked like he hadn't slept in days. Or how he started fiddling with his fingers whenever food was brought up.

Barely anyone noticed how he constantly put one hand around his wrist to check how small it was. Or how he often traced his collar bones. Or the bruises he had on his thighs from folding his hands around them to check how high up he got before his hands couldn't reach each other anymore. Or how he bit off the skin from his lips. Or how he almost always was chewing bubblegum.

Everyone noticed when he suddenly disappeared from his old school. Rumors spread around but no one expected to hear that he had been forced to attend a different school for troubled youth because of anorexia.

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Roman started most days the same. He woke up either by Remus singing or Remy trailing into the room after being out in town all night.

After forcing himself to stay awake he stood up even as he felt nauseous from how dizzy he got. Then he ventured into the bathroom where his twin was eating toothpaste right out of the tub only wearing the thong he slept in.

The school didn't let him have a scale (and they confiscated all the papers where he had calories written down, can't confiscate his own skin though). They did weight him once a month but they never told him how much he weight. But he had begged and payed Remy until they got him one. He dragged off the big Hercules hoodie he slept in before stepping on the scale.

His breath got cut off when he saw the number.

49,5 kg

He had gained.

It was only 2 hectos but it felt like the ground he stood on was splitting apart opening up a abyss for him to fall down into. With a shaky hand he crossed out his past weight and wrote down the new one on his wrist next to his goal weight of 45 kg. The room turned dark leaving only him and the numbers staring back at him. He wanted to bite off his skin and rip out his eyes so he never had to look at the disgrace he was ever again. He wished his body was just a costume he could unzip and change. 

Good thing to know: He's 182 cm tall.

Remus noticed how his brother had a panicked far away look in his eyes and did his best to help. "Hey shithead move over. My turn" They had no clue how to communicate when it came to being affectionate. 

The boy who would later regret eating toothpaste hadn't been on a scale in years so when he stepped on Roman expected him to burst into tears of something. To be fair Remus was quite the crier.