Breaking Slowly // h.s. au

Chapter Thirty Seven

Chapter Thirty Six

*Elsie*

Songs-

Drops of Jupiter- Train

The Man Who Can't Be Moved- The Script

Don't Tell Me- Alison Ruckart

Failures- I The Mighty

My alarm clock shrieks from the other side of the room and I groan before burying my head in the pillow under me.

Incessant beeping.

Non- stop fucking beeping.

I huff before succumbing to the ear piercing alarm and trying to pry myself away from the warmth of the bed.

A weight is resting on my chest and as soon as I peel my eyes open I see a mop of chocolate brown curls splayed on my chest. His hair falls over his eyes and his lips are parted as his face is pressed against my scantily clad chest.

"Harry." I sink my fingers into his curls and lightly scratch his scalp, "Wake up."

Last night's events are still hidden in the back of my mind as they familiar ache in my heart appears, a gloomy haze spreading over me as I sigh.

"Babe wake up." I run my hand down his arm before slightly shaking him awake.

"Morning." He rasps peaking one eye open at me.

"Good morning." I smile at him, trying to mask the pain that continues to settle in me, "We have school." I mutter as he sighs.

"But I just want to stay here." He whines nuzzling his face against my skin, "You're warm and squishy." He smiles.

I giggle lightly but my mind runs wild.

You're fat.

He'll leave.

You're never going to be good enough, or skinny enough, or smart enough.

"We need to go." I say quietly.

He sighs again and his lips form a pout.

"We could skip."

"No Harry."

"Why not? It's just one day."

"My moms will-," I cut myself off and huff, "Can we please just get up. I have to pee anyway."

He just stares at me.

His beautiful eyes seeing into my being as he inches forward and kisses me. His lips feel soft against mine.

"I love waking up to you." He says softly, "You're so beautiful."

"Come on Harry." I whisper pecking his nose as he rolls his eyes playfully and lifts himself off of me. I am suddenly extremely aware that I'm not wearing underwear as I slide out of bed and try to find them.

"Looking for these?" I turn and see Harry holding my underwear up, a big smirk on his face.

"Y-yeah." I sigh sheepishly walking up to him. I feel ugly and fat as his gaze lingers down my body.

I take the piece of fabric from his grasp and step into them. As I pull them up my legs I feel Harry's hands slide around my hips, the warmth from his hands soothing me in contrast to the cold air around us.

"I know we have to go to school but you're just so irresistible." He groans kissing my jaw lightly. I feel like hiding and I don't know why.

"Hmm." I hum kissing his lips lightly, "Later." I brush past him and walk to his dresser, "Can I borrow some of your sister's clothes?"