He's No Good - Zayn Malik

Chapter 76: Useless advice

As you might have noticed I've kinda been taking a break off Wattpad the last month or two or something..
A lot has changed in my life; like I've got a boyfriend now, and I see my friends a lot more often, and I got out a lot, and I have so many papers to write, so I have been really busy and sort of not in the mood to write at all, sorry :/ 

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RECAP! Cause I can't even remember shit without re-reading omg
[[         - Zayn's dad is dead and Zayn is struggling with his emotions and stuff, plus he thought he might have gotten Zoe pregnant on top of that, so he couldn't handle it all, so he got back on drugs - knowing that Zoe will probably be pissed
- Zayn's "friend/enemy" Jason (the one who gave him the drugs, and is sleeping with Jade at the moment) keeps the knife that Zayn used to kill that guy with, under his bed, so Zayn made Jade try and get it for him.
- Harry called Zoe and asked if she'd wanna hang out with him and the others at some pub later.
.. and right now it's morning and they've just had sex..
I think that sums it up!                                                                                        ]]



Zayn's POV


Just lying there next to her with my eyes closed waiting for my heartbeat to slow down, I somehow begin to get sleepy again even though it's like 11, but I open them again as Zoe rolls onto her side, facing me.

 - "I could get on birth control when I turn 18 if like you want me to?" she says quietly, and I turn my head to looks at her as she pulls the duvet up to cover up both of our naked bodies.

- "Nah it's ok," I shrug, and an adorable frown spreads across her face.

- "Thought guys liked it better without," she raises her eyebrows a bit, taking a quick subtle peek at my lips the way she sometimes does.

- "Birth control fucks you up - I've heard," that's what Jade says anyway. "You can get like blood clots and all this weird shit," I add.

That and I don't mind condoms, cause I definitely last longer and have more control with them on.

Like when I get sucked off or get a hand job or shit, where I don't use one, I'll sometimes cum really quick. But that's okay cause like no girl likes to get sore jaws from sucking for half an hour.

- "Right," She smiles.

**

After Zoe has left to go home and eat lunch with her family - for once - I decide to call Matt and get the rest of my tattoo done since I have nothing else to do anyway. 

He told me to come whenever, and when I call him, he appears to have kept his word as he says I can come in in an hour.

I like Matt. He looks really hardcore with all the piercings and shit, but he's a good guy and really talented as well and his way of drawing really fits me I think.

We've known each other for quite a long time now, and he's done every single one of my tattoos, plus a lip ring I once used to wear.

I don't really know why I wanted it - to look cool and tough I guess. However I remember I think I just took it out once and then forgot it somewhere, and then I didn't really care enough to get a new one, so I just forgot about it. 

I decide to call Noel and bring him with me, since he's never doing anything, and I could use some extra company. He's always been a good lad, Noel, he always just tags along wherever we go but he's the moral one of us i guess, and sort of quiet. Never took drugs or anything serious, only cigarettes.

**

Noel looks intensely at me as he opens his parents' front door and walks to the car with me as I came to pick him up.

- "what?" I look away, well knowing what he's on about. 

- "Your pupils are like huge," he says, and I'm not sure but I think I see disappointment in his eyes.  

- "They are?" I light two cigs and give him one of them. Jason has probably told him that I'm back on drugs already, so there's no need to talk about it.

He nods but then shakes his head, apparently choosing to let it go for now. 

The drive to the tattoo parlor is very quiet, but not awkward. We just small talk for a while, until Noel decides to smoke and I turn up the radio loud enough to kill any attempts to converse.

**

There are no other costumers in the parlor as we arrive, so Matt is sitting with his phone at the desk as we arrive, his green flickering towards Noel. 

- "Brought Noel, you've met him before right?" Matt and I shake hands and Noel follows up. 

- "Yeah, getting something done as well or are you just moral support," Matt smirks, putting a stack of bills or something to the side to clear the desk.

- "Moral support," Noel nods, and looks around at the decorated walls before getting his phone out and sitting down in one of the cushioned  chairs next to where I'm having my tattoo finished. 

- "Two sec alright?" 
I nod as Matt disappears into the staff room leaving me and Noel alone, and I sit down and take off my shirt and show the unfinished tiger to Noel. He nods approvingly, giving me a faint smile before looking down into his phone as. 

He was never really a big fan of tattoos anyway. 

As Matt has been away for more than a minute, I decide to be just as social as Noel and get my phone out as well, to text Zoe something. 

On top of all of this, I feel like I really sort of need to step up my game, so I text her a quick "Miss you"  which is quite cute in my own opinion.

She replies "That's sweet, now I miss you too" in less than 20 seconds which I take as somewhat a big compliment as Noel's voice sounds from beside me as I'm about to reply.

- "Mate what's up?" 

I look up at him, the faintest smirk on his face.

- "What? I'm just-" I say, realizing I was smiling at my phone like an idiot - which I think I maybe do a lot when Zoe and I text each other.

- "You're really in love huh?" He says with a slight, not even taunting smile, and I'm quite happy Matt isn't here right now. 

I don't say anything, but I just hope I'm not blushing or shit. 

He doesn't say anything either, as Matt enters the room again. 

 **

After the tattoo is finished, and I've got my arm wrapped up in plastic, Matt and I get back in the car again, and annoyingly enough Noel is really in the mood to talk today. That's new.

- "Mate are you okay though?" he starts right as I thrust the key in the engine to start the car.

- "Fine," I shrug, but he just keeps looking at me. "I don't hang out with you guys so more, 'cause like I've been busy is all,"

- "It's fine." He nods. "But. You stopped doing drugs. A while ago, and then-"

- "I did?" 

- "Yeah,"

- "I'm fine," I say as trying to end the conversation, and we sit in silence just smoking for a bit. What did we even talk about before? Football? Girls? 

- "Jason talks about you, a lot." he starts again.

I lift an eyebrow.

"I think he was sort of jealous of you being the happier one for once like- having a girl and all. But like. He's having quite a laugh over the fact that you still have to dope now and.." he adds. 

Sure.

- "Yeah I get it," I cut him off. Jason thinks Zoe will break up with me. Got it.
What is his problem anyway. He's got Jade now or whatever they're doing, what more does he want from me?

- "I think u should stop though, the drugs. If you really like that girl," he says, but I know that already, of course.

 Could people just stop telling me what the fuck to do. If I wanna screw it up for myself, then so be it. And if I make it, then fuck everybody. I know what I'm doing.

We just look at each other until Noel looks away first. 

"Just saying that Jason would love to see up mess up," 

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This was really short sry.. just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive and I haven't given up on the story hah