He's No Good - Zayn Malik

Chapter 84: More lies

You might want to skim through the last couple of chapters, but here is a short recap:

-Zayn got told a couple of chapters ago that his dad (who was violent and left when he was little) just recently died in a car crash.
- Zayn went back on drugs and Zayn's friends Noel, Marc and Jason knows(the dickhead who is seeing Jade (the bitch)). And Zayn has promised Zoe soo many times that he would never get back on drugs, so she can't know!
- Harry also found out because Zayn's nose started bleeding at school from snorting drugs.
- Jai (Jade's twin brother) told Zoe that Zayn was at his house, talking to Jade.
- Zayn also lied about that to Zoe in the last chapter, he said it was school related but it was to pick up the knife (that Zayn killed a guy with a long time ago) that Jade has stolen for Zayn from under Jasons bed, because Jason never got rid of it bc douche.
- Now Jason almost hinted in front of Zoe that Zayn's back on drugs (saying "call me if you run out") and she now has a weird feeling that Zayn is hiding something from her.

And he fucking is...

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Zayn's POV

I wake up feeling like shit. My head is pounding a bit but that's not the reason, and I feel like I had a bad dream that I can't really get my head out of.

Zoe is still sleeping, lying next to me with her brown hair spread out on the pillow in such a beautiful way that it almost looks staged.

Then I remember what a fucking pointless lie I told her yesterday - probably the reason why I feel so down now.

Why the fuck did I say that though.

I said that I went to Jade's house to borrow her notes!? Cause what, she couldn't give them to me at school?

Why didn't i just tell her the truth - that I had to get that knife, and that Jade is the only person who could get it for me from under Jason's fucking bed. It sounds fucking ridiculous but Zoe already knows about the knife and stuff, so why fucking not.

It's a wonder she didn't figure it out already. But that's the thing isn't it? Trust, she trusts me. I'm her boyfriend, she is supposed trust me. Only she can't.

I'm not good at this.

However I know I did it because I panicked because I had not expected her to find out that I had stopped by Jade's place at all.

Why am I like this! I'm so fucking stupid.

But anyway it's probably best not to remind Zoe of the whole deal with the knife anyway.

I even still have the knife hidden under my mattress - another fucking thing I now have to worry about.

And fuck you Jai Davis. Little snitch.

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We drive to school together as Zoe has almost got all of her essentials at my place anyway now. Some clothes, make up and hair stuff I think. I've given her a drawer in my dresser for her stuff.

- "Can't wait for the holidays honestly," she says as we reach school and get out of the car and I put my hand in Zoe's. It's starting to get very cold.

We park at the back entrance as there is more available spot there.

- "Yeah same," I say. It's not long now. I'm still a bit behind in some of my classes, but not so much anymore. I've honestly done my best lately.

My phone vibrates in my pocket, and I get it out with the hand that's not holding Zoe's.

It's from Jade.
I bite my lip and put it back into my pocket way too quick. I didn't read the message.

- "What's up," Zoe grins as I hold the door for her.

- "Just the boys," I smile at her a little, squeezes her hand. Lying again. She smiles back and looks at me for a second. 

I follow her to her locker and let go of her slightly cold hand that I have warmed up.

- "See you after school, yeah?" I ask and she leans back against her locker making room so that I can kiss her goodbye. I kiss her softly. "Just at the back right?" I point towards the way we came in.

- "Yeah," she leans in and I give her a last kiss putting my hand behind her waist for a moment, breathing in her scent. Sweet, feminine, a bit perfumy.

- "I love you," 

**

I sit in English class when I remember that I got that text from Jade.

We're sitting in groups of 5 doing some kind of assignments, but it seems like all of us 4 are basically letting the smart one, Miles, do the job for us. He doesn't seem to mind at all.

Jade is in another group across the room, and I get eye contact with her briefly as I glance in her direction.

I open the message.

- I think Jason knows

I frown and glance at her again. She's occupied this time, looking at her phone like me. Good.

- What

- That I stole the knife, or something. He asked about you?

I surely hope not. That would be anything but good. He has too much dirt on me already.

- How?

I can't imagine that he checks under his bed every single day. Or maybe yes - to remind himself of how fucked I am maybe.

- I just think so okay, sorry

Bitch.

I glance at her for the third time, and this time she puts her phone down, looks at me and shrugs.

I'm fucked. 

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