Can we // OHGSY

Part 41

February 12, 2018 ; 5:23am

I was so accustom to the time I was awoken all the time that I still woke up early. Guapa really kept it down for me, she let me stay at her place. I really owed her a ton, she bought me so much clothes.

She changed

I wanted to change but I was in, not completely in but I still now had a mark on me. When Guapa saw the tres puntos in my hand she nearly lost it but it was to late.

I sat up staring out the apartment window grateful and  at peace for once.

"She's in there" I heard a voice outside the bedroom door and some other voice mixed with it making it harder to understand.

I sighed and laid back down staring up at the ceiling. I really messed up and I hated myself even more for it. What made me think I was up for this life ? I ain't hard but I sure can act like nothing phases me and people believed the act.

The door soon swung open and Guapa stood there with her arms crossed looking mad as hell!

"What's wrong" I raised a brow

"Yo little home boy waiting for you out front" she scoffed and I frowned, homeboy ?

I than dress into comfy clothes and slowly open my door wondering who it can be. My eyes grow wide seeing Machete in the couch chewing a lollipop stick.

"Loca told me you was out" he said getting up smiling big

"Yeah I did, I thought you was locked up still" I stuttered in shock

"I made some changes yknow me" he than slid his hand around my waist getting closer to me

"Machete look-" I backed up a bit and he seemed annoyed already.

The jail I was in didn't let incarcerated people send letters to each other but me and Machete still did it. Loca put me on with him and talking to him was like a relief, I felt lonely and his words were encouraging. I wanted a friend not a boyfriend and I tried to let him know that constantly.

"I know I know, i love you though you know that" he said in his raspy morning voice, I always imagined how his voice would sound. Boy was it heaven.

"I do" I smiled cheesing and he pecked my forehead

"I'll see you around baby Dan" he winked and walked out the apartment.

I didn't need him thinking we were together, life from prison and out here were different. I wanted to leave all those things back there I hope he could understand.

"Machete really" Guapa bursted out laughing and I turned around quickly flicking her off.

"What he's my friend" I rolled my eyes

"Yeah sure" she giggled walking back into her room. She most likely was going back to sleep, she loved her sleep.

With the money I made in there I repayed Guapa and my phone bill yesterday. I still felt like I owed Guapa more though.

My money was barely sent yesterday night so that's why I repayed her late.

My thumb hovered over Ale phone number but I called either way.

Daniella ; he asked not sure if it was me it seemed

Yeah it's me

Heard you staying at my cousin house it's true ; he asked

Yeah 'til I can get my place; I answered feeling myself get annoyed. I was so used to being questioned back in ... home, I hated it.

I um might come by later maybe we can talk; he sighed sounding tired

I'd like that Ale; I smiled

He didn't answer anymore and I felt embarrassed for letting the nick name slip out.

I'll let you sleep

I'm not home I'm actually out, your good; he chuckled

Oh okay

I've missed you too but why not call? I know I missed you but did you really miss me? You know what it doesn't matter I just ugh... I'm sorry; he sounded really bitter and I didn't blame him

You cand be mad, I'd be mad too; I laid back in my bed sighing

Can I actually pick you up in like a hour, I really need someone to talk to

Yeah yeah for sure just text me when your here

The call ended and I got up immediately to brush my teeth again and brush my hair. I didn't do my make up though, I was to lazy too.

I posted the pick of my fit on snap letting people know I was out. I made sure I covered my right hand though so my tatt wouldn't show.

An hour and 19 minutes later

Ale🏆💕: I'm out front

I knocked on Guapa door and walked in and smiled at her sleeping body. She deserved to be at peace, she was my role model at the moment.

My foot tapped on the elevator floor feeling myself grow nervous, would he even hug me? I stepped out the elevator and out the apartment building looking around and my heart skipped a beat when I saw his old BMW.

I walked over smiling and I heard the car door unlock and I hopped in the front.

"I- hey" I smiled small feeling my eyes get glossy

"Hey" he smiled soft examining me or checking me out your pick

"Dani" I than turn and my eyes began to tear up when I see Malik!

"Malik onygosh" I than reach my arms out and we were now in a tight hug and I felt my body shake, I missed them all. I want everything just to go back to the way it was before.

I than let him go and get out the uncomfortable situation of me having to reach him to the back seat and me from the front seat. I wiped my eyes and felt my eyes begin to water some more.

"I'm sorry I can't" I quickly opened the car door and ran back into the apartment. I didn't ever want to let someone see me in a vulnerable state.