February 12, 2018 ; 6:56am
"I didn't mean to scare you guys I just- this is weird for me" I looked away from their looks
"Its fine best" Malik rubbed my back and he hugged me while I stood there feeling a void of loneliness.
"Kato can you leave us talk for a bit" Alejandro butted in and Kato nodded walking out the bedroom I was staying in.
"I get what your saying trust I do, just know the world stopped while you was gone. We still care for you" he talked to me softly and I smiled looking up at him
"Thanks and I'm so sor-"
"I heard you the first time let's just not speak about it" he gave me a tight smile and I nodded
"I noticed something though" he seem to look serious again
"What" I asked confused
"Really" he grabbed my hand and I pulled my hand away quickly
"It was the only way I was kept safe", he noticed the tres puntos.
"Not it wasn't y-"
"Yes it was! You wouldn't know, were you there? No!" I yelled getting up
"I been there in your place and we both know this" he frowned
"Yeah and last I checked you gang banged a whole lot" I stated
"You said it I gang banged giving my niggas respect for having my back but I ain't ever got in a FUCKING gang" he grabbed my chin to look at him
"You weren't there" I pushed his hands away
"Yeah and I wasn't there for you because you cut me off" he gave me a glare
"I just this was a mistake I don't even know you bro, the Dani I knew did take risk but only if it was right" he shook his head in disappointed
"All you did was try to fuck me, you don't know shit bout me" I glared back at him
"I wanted you to be mine and I would drop anything for you but it was you who wouldn't let me"
"Yeah okayyyy that's why you always slept with a bunch of girls" I laughed bitterly
"You ain't hard and never was you ain't bout it", he did know me and real good.
"I changed it's literally been a year"
"Well I wish you didn't" he sighed and he backed up again and sat down on the bed Guapa lent to me.
"I think we should talk about it because the entire conversation you just been looking for an argument. I'm sorry I seriously am okay, a lot went down and I was just-"
"I get it" he cut me off and I waited for him to continue but the room stayed completely silent.
I began to realize not only was the room quiet but so was outside the door. I than sat beside him and he got up quickly and I felt annoyance grow.
"Guapa let me know what went down with the cop that one time you tried to call me, I shouldn't be mad but.." I than look up and his eyes shut as he leaned on the wall.
"Its fine you deserve to feel that way" I smiled getting up and engulf him in a hug, I missed him a ton.
"I'm sorry for getting you locked up too"
"Its cool bighead" he chuckled lowly hugging me back and the door soon opens.
Guapa cleared her throat and we both separated quickly.
"Gees can I talk to you for a sec" she asked and he nodded walking toward her.
Did i do something wrong? Was it about me? I started feeling very nervous and walked out the room to see him annoyed walking out the house, the door soon slammed right after him.
Kato seemed to have left too
"Everything alright homegirl" I asked her walking toward her slowly
"It's Melanie" She corrected and I nodded
"Is everything okay" I asked
"Just stay away from Gees aight" she than goes over to her room and I hear the lock click.
Why is everyone being so confusing it's so draining.
I didn't want to over think it and let it be a secret like it was meant to but I couldn't help but think of why Melanie was acting hella strange.
After the longest of thinking of theories of what it could've been I gave up because none of it added up. My thoughts soon went to Mitchy and I walked out the apartment needing to be alone at the moment.
I grabbed my ear buds and walked around the block trying to get my mind around where can she be? My little sister needed me, she was like my own. I never stopped thinking about her.
Did she leave Las Vegas or did she go back to Los Angeles?
Life wasn't fair but everything felt right when she was with me, she was my only mood changer. She was the only one I needed and was eager to see, she was my everything. Why did my mom have to act like this she knew how much she meant to me. I didn't ever know if I should feel mad toward her or understanding.
"You should really look where you going" I than jump and roll my eyes when I see Machete
"You lucky I look out for you" he said putting an arm around me
"More like stock me so no thanks needed" I smiled over at him and he rolled his eyes
"Why that pout angel" he said and he smoothly had me trapped against the wall and him.
"Nothing" I cleared my throat.
Don't get me wrong I really do appreciate him but I couldn't help but always have an act up, like I never was myself near him. Only person who was so close was my ex PJ who nearly broke me, than Gees who it was so complicated with at the moment.
The thing was the letters we would send each other did go deep but I never mentioned my personal life specifically like he did to me, I was scared if I was being honest.
"Right" he rolled his eyes backing up
"Catch you later?" I yelled after him but he already turned on the block seeming mad that I didn't open up to him
