Can we // OHGSY

Part 33

April 18, 2017.     ;     1:23pm

I then went to my snap to post a couple photos of my today outfit. I felt so happy knowing me and Ale friendship seem to have gotten better yesterday.

Today I was just going to be alone, at least I thought.

When it was about 2:30 Carla came in my room. I was confused but just patted next to me and she sat but stayed quite.

"What's wrong" I ask

"I just it's I-" she then stops and sighs

"Spill" I rub her back

"I can't keep doing my stuff alone and" she sighs and I frown. She's being so confusing .

"I need help tonight with a drug deal text me if your down" she sighs getting up.

A what? Huh why me?

She always separated me and Malik from all that stuff really good. What could of changed.

I thought hard all day, Ale took my mind off it a little bit but when we stopped texting I thought about it again.

I didn't dare tell anyone.

Maybe I should? Maybe I can finally pay her back for paying my phone bill.

12:45pm

Me: meet me outside my window

Carla 💯: k.
Seen

Everyone was finally asleep and I was now getting out my window. Which wasn't so hard because this window wasn't so high up in the air.

I was now looking around but soon see her car and jog over. We didn't say anything and she just played some music.

I didn't ask anything. My heart beat accelerated so much when I saw the sketchy place she took me at.

"Sorry for bringing you" she finally speaks up after parking.

"Why'd you want me all of a sudden" I ask pulling my hoodie off.

"I just ugh honest" she ask and I nod.

"I just am so used to Carlos here but I finally broke it off, like for real and I'm honestly scared to do these runs alone" she sighs sounding embarrassed.

"Oh" I say and just shrug.

"Alright anything I should know" I ask

"You always stay strapped" she then passes me a gun from under her seat.

I grabbed it and swallowed nervously and just kept a straight face. I then put it in my hoodie after putting it in safety.

I then put my hoodie back on when I know it's almost time. I didn't want anyone to recognize me or remember me.

After a while we were getting our customers and everything was going fine.

3:23am

"Omygosh thank you boo" Carla hugged me tight and drove away. I felt so tired.

Wait she didn't take the gun back.

Me: ur gun

Carla 💯: it's urs
Seen

What the hell am I supposed to do with this shit?!! I then snuck back in successfully.

I quickly hid my gun in the shoe box under my bed. I knew I'd soon have to hide me phone and gun way better.

I couldn't sleep I felt so guilty. I then opened the box up and texted Ale. Hopefully he was awake.

Ale 💓🏆: y u awake bby ?

Me: can't sleep

Ale 💓🏆: what wrong

Me: nothing jus miss u 😩

Ale 💓🏆: mchachhhhh

Me: what lol?

Ale 💓🏆: it's me smacking my lips Bc unfrontin

Me: I'm okay don't trip
Seen

Me: why u leave me on read??

Ale 💓🏆: Bc u lying I rather sleep

Me: aleeeeeeee

Ale 💓🏆: good night <3
Seen

I sigh he wasn't wrong though I was straight out lying but why did he have to leave me like that :/

I then curled into a ball. Now what the fuck did I just get myself into this.

I wasn't sure what to do. I only did bad things when it was unnecessary but was this necessary? I mean I wanted to be a good friend but it just didn't feel right.

I then put my phone back in the box. What do I do now? I then decide to go to the restroom realizing that was another reason why I couldn't sleep.

Once I was back in my room I see my window open and quickly shut it. I then look out my window and look up at the sky.

If there is a God out there please make sure I get out in the right path. Do what ever you need to do to get me away from all bad. I want to get better for myself and my family.

I then peak over to Mitchy room and find her gone? I then pass my mom room to see it slightly open and quickly walk back. There was Mitchy!