ғɪɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ - 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐬

009. evan

c.murphreak
fuck
i fucking hate them



It was eleven o'six p.m. on a Tuesday, so naturally, Evan was confused to receive a DM from Connor out of the blue.

Evan.Hansen
I'm sorry? Who do you hate?

c.murphreak
my fucking parents i hate my fucking parents
i fucking hate my fucking sister
my fucking god fuck all of them



Evan was also taken aback by how many times Connor dropped the f-bomb. Not that he was disgusted by cursing. He was friends—sorry, family friends—with Jared (who had a tendency to make immature jokes about what Evan used his hand for when he was alone in his bedroom) for Pete's sake! But when you're groggily staring up at the ceiling and unable to fall asleep despite being exhausted, unlocking your buzzing phone to find eight, aggressive varieties of the word "fuck" scattered around in five short messages will probably catch you off guard.

c.murphreak
FUCK



Oh, God, another one.

c.murphreak
its always my fuckign fault
when zoe FJCKING tells me im a freak
when she tells me im a monster its my fsult if i get mad
OTS MY FUCKING FSULT THAT WHEN SHE AGGRAVATES ME I REACT

Evan.Hansen
Are you okay? What happened?
I mean if you don't mind me asking

c.murphreak
it wanst even that big of a deal
i snapped back at some teacher who was pushing my buttons or something
school called my parents in and we had a talk at home
of course i feel guilty its not like im heartless
i try
i really do
fuck im trying
its fine and then zoe has to fucking say under her breath that im a freak
and idk
i snapped at her too
again
im so fucking angry i tell her im going to kill her
of course my dad takes her side and my moms too scared so she doesnt jump in
he tells me to shut ny fucking mouth and go tovmy room
fuck no its zoes fault
but dont worry because i got those bitches back

Evan.Hansen
Wait what did you do?

c.murphreak
i stole from their liquor cabinet

Evan.Hansen
Oh my God
Are you drunk right now?

c.murphreak
who cares
i drank one bottle

Evan.Hansen
I think you should go to bed.

c.murphreak
lmao no youre not my mom
and even if u were i wouldnt listen to u

Evan.Hansen
Please try to sleep.
It's good for you.

c.murphreak
no
fine
but not because you told me

Evan.Hansen
Goodnight

Seen

Despite being the one to encourage Connor to go to sleep, Evan definitely couldn't fall asleep now. Not after that.

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connor: hOw Do YoU kNoW wHaT's GoOd FoR mE¿?

larry: thAT'S MY OPINION

connor:

zoe:

cynthia: