On Opposite Ends. {Snufkin x OC}

-Chapter 21- Jax

Two weeks go by.. It is autumn in Moominvalley.

"I know you can't hear me, I know that you're gone forever but you're still my mother. I couldn't have wished for anyone better, because you were the best. I loved you everyday, even when I was not here with you to show it. I guess for now I can just pretend you're on a trip, I'll wait for you. I promise." Denial.

"I miss you."

I set the flowers down by the tomb signing off my final goodbye. I sighed and started my way back home. On my walk back I could feel warm tears stream down my face. I clung to my arms holding them as if I were freezing. My heart stopped beating for the things I cared about. I stopped playing the fiddle, I stopped making tea, I didn't see the bartender, I stopped traveling, I didn't ask for help. I shut everyone out. My whole world crumbled before me, it slipped through my fingertips like dry sand. I felt like I couldn't move, my body shut down. I stayed in my room, stowed away as if I were a broom in a closet.

"No one would care. Who would?"

I wept, I knew I was dehydrated. I couldn't take care of myself. I didn't sleep for a week. I needed someone. Anyone.

"Knock knock," went the door.

I didn't answer.

"Knock, knock, knock." It went again.

I ignored it.

"Knock, knock, knock, knock."

Then I heard a voice.

"Jax? Hey, kid. Are you in there?"

The bartender. I got up slowly and opened the door for him. He gave me a look of pity when I opened it.

"I heard what happened."

I didn't respond.

"Can I come in?"

"Sure." I spoke hoarsely. My voice sounded sickly.

I closed the door and he took a seat in the living room. I did as well.

"Listen, Jax. I know this is hard for you, but you need to take care of yourself. You have circles under your eyes. You're voice sounds terrible. Should I stay for a while?"

Then he had a sudden look of realization.

"Why aren't you traveling? It's Spring, Jax. This is unlike you."

I became angry at the sudden question. Anger.

"Can you just leave me alone! I can't take this right now! My mother is dead, I shut everyone out for a reason!" I shouted.

I saw him recoil. His face suddenly hurt. I realized what I had done. My face softened, tears coming back.

"I'm sorry. I just can't control my emotions right now. Can you come back a little later?"

"Of course, Jax. Please take care of yourself for me okay? I'll be back to check on you later." The bartender said getting up from his seat.

"I care for you kid. Don't be a stranger."

Was all he said before he left. I was all alone again. I regret making him leave. I regret shouting at him. I regret shutting everyone out, but I can't help it right now. I was heartbroken. Can you blame me?

Heyo!

Getting back in the loop sorta! Hope you guys enjoyed this part. Don't forget to comment your thoughts and tell me some ways I can improve the story for you guys. ILY GUYS!

Later~