"God your eyes are so beautiful it actually hurts me to look at them because I know at some point I will have to look away," she snaps her attention over to me, which is when I realise I just said that out loud.
*TRIGGER WARNING* - anxiety attacks...
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"This was dumb, let's go," I turn around and just as I take a step away, I hear the doorbell ring.
I turn around and walk back up staring grumpily at Billie as we hear footsteps approaching the door, she pats me on the head knowing I hate it Damn this girl has top energy
The door opened traveling a bleach made woman, her hair nearly pinned up. "Hello you must be Rory, I'm Victoria" she assessed Billie and a snickered slightly as Billie nudged me to stop.
"No, she is," she pointed at me and I gave a little wave.
"Oh silly me, anyway come in, it is cold outside," she said.
We follower as she walks down the hallway, Billie whispers in my ear "Damn does she like Drink tea with the queen or some shit," I giggle and she gives me one of her 'I wasn't joking' looks, causing my giggle to turn into a full-blown laugh, but it doesn't last long. we walk into a large kitchen and everything goes silent.
my dad is sat next to the little girl, helping her with what I assume to be her homework. it makes me feel jealous. I know its a bad thing, I mean, look how things turned out for me in the end. But I never got that with him, and I wish I had gotten it. I was brought out of my thoughts by Billie tapping my arm, "hey, she just told us we can sit," I nodded at her, visibly gulping, feeling overwhelmed.
"oh my god, Billie like what, you know Billie Eilish, as in the Billie Eilish?" Elsie had a smile plastered over her face.
"Yeah, I do, and she is a real person, not an object," I said bitterly. I watched as Victoria gave my dad a weary look.
"hi," Billie said sweetly giving her fist bump.
"so, um Rory, um so I thought you were just watching Billie's concert, not that you knew her?" he said, stuttering. it was as if he didn't even know how to talk to me anymore.
"Yeah, we are friends, I'm actually on tour with her, although we don't have long left now," there was a thick tension in the air. I picked up my phone quickly and texted Billie
Bil, don't mention us little girls love giving out personal info
I saw her pick up her phone and read the message, flashing me a small smile, agreeing.
"she actually, as the one who gave me the idea for my new music video, when the parties over, she helped produce it too, maybe Elsie has shown you?" she asked, trying to stop the awkward silence and glares that were being passed around the room.
"the crying black tears one, yes we have seen it," dad said,
"not for the faint-hearted, or children," Victoria said in a bitter tone, obviously not being a fan of Billie's messages to the world.
"well, is an artistic take on things, and I think her social's portray as her as quite unapproachable but she is the sweetest in person, so I think you just need to look at it differently," i said, then excusing myself to go to the toilet, but really it was to go see my old bedroom.
I walked up the stairs, and saw the door, making me smile. I walked over and cracked the door open. it wasn't how I had left it, the light blue walls were now a blinding pink, and the walls were covered in unicorns. "you did not give that little bitch my room," i muttered, wiping away the tear that fell from my eye, walking down the stairs were luch was served on the table.
"what did you do to my room?" I said, clearly upset.
"well, its the second biggest room, so it seemed unfair that Elise would get a smaller one, and you have the bigger one even though you don't live here," my eyes widened. I was beyond angry and upset all at once.
"you know what, this is bullshit. the only reason I didn't come to y with you anymore is that you wouldn't let me. because you didn't want me getting in the way of your new perfect little family. instead you just sent me Christmas cards, every year showing me what I was missing," at this point tears were streaming down my face.
"Elsie darling, why don't you go play outside," my dad patted her on the head.
"fine daddy," she said skipping off as just as she was about to step outside I called at her. "he isn't your dad, he's my dad, but he's also a prick you know what you can have him all to yourself, I'm done." i walked out to the front of the house, and out of the front door, making sure to slam it on the way.
Billie's P.O.V.
I heard the front door close, and I stood up to leave but before I did, I knew I had to say something to her dad. "can I talk to you?" I said not wanting miss judgy listening in. he nodded and I walked down the hallway, him shortly following.
"she deserved better, and I hope you realize that now, but you should also know that it's too late, you already broke her. you can't fix that now, I mean you could have done, but you blew it and you can't blame anyone else. but I'm glad that this happened, you know why? because I love her so so much, and now I know why I can't leave her," he looked surprised, but I left him standing in the hallway as I walked out of the front door to go and find Rory.
it was when the front door closed behind me, that it hit me I just said I loved her like out loud SHIT!!!!! I thought, knowing my main priority was to find her. "rory," called as I walked out onto the street.
as I turned the corner there she was, curled up in a ball, her head in her knees.
A/N
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brooooo there is a big big thing about to happen, but you just have t b patient
