13 REASONS WHY

Run Away

Diana POV - Stay

"I love you,  please stay with me" she said while pointing the gun in me.

I can't breath properly,  napapalunok nalang ako habang nakatitig sa baril na hawak niya.

"I will, just put the gun down." I answered.  I need to calm her down.

"Promise?" she smiled.

She became soft, I grabbed the chance and slowly trying to get the gun from her hands but she step back and pointed it back to me again.  Fuck!  I froze.

"No! I know you wont stay,  you are just trying to get my attention to run away." galit na sabi niya.

Lalo akong nahirapan sa paghinga,  I'm hopeless.

-Diana

I heard a soft voice calling me in my head.

"I will.." napatigil ako sa pagsasalita ng bigla niyang hinampas sakin yung shotgun.

Nahilo ako, nakita kong nataranta siya sa ginawa niya kaya nabitawan niya bigla yung shotgun.

Sinubukan kong tumayo habang nakayuko siya. She's freak...

-Diana

I heard the same voice again in my head.

Nakatungtong na ako sa labas ng back window niya bago pa niya ako mahabol.

Sobrang lamig sa labas,  nanginginig narin ako dahil sa kaba.

I heard her talking inside her room.

My heart beats fast and fast when she's getting nearer and nearer.

-Diana

Again, I heard someone calling me,  I want to call her back and ask for help.

I saw her reflection at the other side of her window holding the gun. My heart stopped in beating for a second.

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"DIANA!" someone shouted.

(panting)

I'm trying to catch up with my breath.

"are you okay?" I looked up and saw her worried face. I'm surprised and confused. Franki is worried at me, fuck this dream. Hanggang ngayon hinuhunting parin ng babaeng yun sa panaginip ko. Sobrang natrauma ako sakanya.

She hug me without a warning. It helps me to calm and cleared my mind. I'm getting to want more of her, her touch,  her soft and smooth skin. I like it when she's this close to me.

I'm about to hug her back but she already released herself from me.

"I have to go." cold na sabi niya.

Hindi ko siya maintindihan,  hindi ko maintindihan kung paano niya nagagawang iparamdam sakin na she wants me and she wants to stay away from me at the same time.

Like last night,  I know, I can feel from her kiss that she wants me pero may pumipigil sakanya. Nag-ingat na nga ako sa galaw ko kagabi kasi ramdam kong she want a safe place habang hinahalikan niya ako.

I did not touch her or move my hands for her to know that I want her not her kiss. I lost myself last night just for her.

I want to fuck her last night coz she badly turned me on pero hindi ko ginawa,  I respected her. I waited for her next move before I move but she cuts it. Everything between my moment and her moment,  she cuts it.