13 REASONS WHY

Tape 10

I want to take care of her (whole day with Diana)

I woke up with someone beside of me.

Diana. She is too good to be true.

Tinutulungan parin niya ako kahit na hindi ko siya pinapansin at madalas tarayan pag lumalapit siya sakin. How can I deserve this treatment?

Nakatingin lang ako sakanya habang iniisip kung bakit ang bait bait niya sakin sa kabila ng lahat ng ginagawa ko sakanya.

She fed me last night and gave medicine.

I'm trying to push her away from me but she still there to help.

This is not good. I can't let myself hurt again.

"I will, just put the gun down." Diana said. She looked scared on how her eyebrow trying to touch each other and she's sweating.

I think she's having a nightmare again, same like last time. She is afraid with something in her dreams. I need to wake her up.

"Diana." kahit papaano nag-aalala din ako sakanya. I know she is having hard time in her dreams.

"Diana wake up!" niyugyog ko braso niya tsaka siya nagising.

Niyakap niya ako ng marealize niya kung sino yung taong gumising sakanya, she hugs me like I save her with something, I feel how scared she is, nararamdaman ko yung palpitation at bilis ng tibok ng puso niya. There is something wrong with her. I'm afraid to know.

"You'll be fine." trying to give her good comments.

Binitawan niya ako sa pagkakayakap niya sakin and this time sana hindi nalang siya bumitaw dahil medyo naging awkward yung atmosphere.

Tumayo siya, nahihiyang tumingin sakin.

"feeling better now?" she asked and I nod.

"Thank you for the food last night, It helps me a lot. I'm feeling better than usual."

She looked surprised.

"you can stay here, pagluluto ulit kita. And please wag kanang tumanggi."

This is the first time I heard please from her. I felt something inside of me after hearing it. I'm afraid to tell that its like a pleasure. I feel more better. I pictured someone as a bad person but she keeps on showing to me that she's not like what I think.

Sinundan ko lang siya ng tingin hanggang sa makarating siya ng kitchen.

I want to run again, I want to stand here and walk away from her but this time I can't.

Tumayo ako at umupo sa harap niya. She looked surprised again and I found her cute with that expression.

"It's good to have cooking skill." she looked confused, she can't believe that I'm trying to start a conversation with her.

I think same lang kaming may pinagdadaanan base sa nakita ko tuwing nagkakanightmare siya sa bagay na gusto ko ng alamin ngayon. She's fighting with it. She can still be this chill girl.

I should do the same.

"Don't tell me you only eat take outs?" natatawang tanong niya.

Come on Diana, I'm trying to make good conversation here. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. I'm giving you a chance 😒

"My bad." 😂

I want to get piss off but her laugh killed it. And I don't also want to ruin this moment because she needs it. She need to laugh so she can forget her nightmare for just a moment.