Swallows- A Poetry Collection

Hollow

I don't feel like myself,
And I haven't for a long time,
My barriers became me,
And now I've forgotten the person I used to be.

I've forgotten how to smile truthfully,
And whenever I try,
It feels like a grimace,
And causes an ache in my heart.

I don't know who I am anymore,
The naive person I used to be.
The bubbly person I pretend to be,
Or the numb person I've grown to be.

Sometimes, I don't even feel like a person,
Hollow summarizes it perfectly,
And I'll wait for my prolonged death,
Sure to come soon.

I am a hollow girl,
With a hollow soul,
A smile made of broken dreams and silent screams,
Drowning in my mistakes.

Whether you did this to me,
Or whether it's self-inflicted,
I can't seem to feel,
As the steady beat in my chest grows quieter than it ever has before.

I'm sorry,
About all the sorrow it will cause,
But knowing that others will be in pain,
Won't change my mind.

But deep inside,
I know that these promises to myself are hollow and empty,
Because tomorrow morning I'll wake up again,
To the birdsong from outside my window.