I remember,
When you u s e d to ask me,
Why aren't you eating?
And you used to pester me when I said I'm not hungry.
But now,
You ask me,
Why are you eating?
You've g a i n e d weight...
Isn't that what you wanted?
I'll never be enough for you...
What don't you understand?
I was getting better.
I felt f r e e ,
It's funny how in a few days,
You can break completely,
Because of just a few words.
You don't want me to get b e t t e r,
You don't want to know how I feel either,
You just don't want the guilt,
That will haunt you to an early grave.
You don't want to think that it's you at fault,
Telling all of my friends about how utterly, disgustingly fat I am,
But then getting confused when I turn down meals,
How can I put it any simpler for you?
It's you,
You put me down when I'm b e a t e n,
But then act as if you love me,
And now, the only attention that I crave is yours.
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Hi! Thank you so much for reading!
I don't really tend to write about eating disorders/weight, but I thought that I would for a change, for now. I know that my representation may not reflect how others feel on this controversial topic, but I didn't want to go too into detail to make it triggering.
If you feel this way, please do talk to someone! Whether it's a friend, parent, teacher or professional, talking about it helps! If you don't have anyone to talk to, feel free to talk to me about it (only if you're comfortable with sharing, of course).
If you have any issues, please let me know! Thank you!
~CatlikeG Xx
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