Just Before The Dawn [DaeJae]

Thirty Five

"Jae"

"Yeah?"

It was the next evening and they lied on the bed in Daehyun's room. They just had shared a joint and now were enjoying the calming feeling.

Daehyun looked at Youngjae and smiled. "You're cute."

"And you're high."

A chuckle was the answer. "Yeah, but you are too."

"Totally." he smiled back at Daehyun. "But... you're cute as well.

"Ow Jae..." he rolled over and hugged the boy. "Did I metion I love cuddling with you?"

Youngjae just smiled to himself and returned the hug carefully. He nuzzled his face in Daehyun's t-shirt and closed his eyes. "Thank you Dae..." Youngjae mumbled, then sighed. "I'm tired..."

"Do you wanna go to sleep?"

The younger nodded and looked at him. "I will sleep in my clothes okay, I'm tired and lazy..."

"Sure" Daehyun sat up. "But I'm feeling pretty hot... Would you mind me sleeping in boxers?"

"No it's fine..." Youngjae watched Daehyun taking his shirt and pants off, but barely noticed it, as he spaced out.

Daehyun noticed this and giggled. He sat back down next to Youngjae and lightly tapped his cheek.

"Jae."

"Huh?" Youngjae blinked and looked at him. Then he saw Daehyun's uncovered upper body and grinned. "You're handsome."

"Thanks, JaeJae." he lied down on his previous spot. "Hey could you switch the light off? You're closer to the switch."

Youngjae nodded and reached over, and the room lied in darkness. He felt how Daehyun's arm sneaked around his waist, then the older pulled him closer to his chest. "Do you really want to keep your jeans on? Isn't it too warm?"

"It's okay" the boy said, although Daehyun was right. Surely he was less insecure at the moment since he was high, but exposing his body in front of Daehyun? Never.

"Okay, then good night, JaeJae. Have sweet dreams~"

Daehyun had fallen asleep rather quickly, while Youngjae still lied awake an hour later. He was tired, he wanted to sleep, but it was just too hot under the blanket in his jeans and long-sleeve shirt. Eventually, he couldn't take it anymore and decided to take them off. Daehyun was asleep now anyways, so it should be okay. Carefully he got rid of his pants and shirt and cuddled up to Daehyun again, feeling way more comfortable now. His head felt light and he was tired, so he drifted off to sleep pretty quickly.

Maybe it was the weed, maybe the unusual closeness to Daehyun plus the fact they were half-naked, maybe both, but in this night, Youngjae had a dream of a kind he had never had before.

He and Daehyun sat on the couch in the latter's room, Daehyun's hand on his thigh. The older looked at him and something in his dark eyes made Youngjae's heart rate increase. "JaeJae... You're so cute..." the older whispered and leaned in. Their lips connected and slowly, Youngjae felt himself being pushed down to lie on his back. The older's hands went under his shirt and started caressing his body, while their kiss deepened. Youngjae tilted his head back and sighed deeply, making Daehyun chuckle.

Then, Youngjae woke up. He realized what had just happened and immediately felt his heartbeat speed up.

What was going on? He could not have such dreams with Daehyun, he never had a dream like that, and he had no idea how to react to this. Daehyun grumbled in his sleep and pulled him a bit closer, but the younger barely noticed this. He could not get his thoughts away from what he had just dreamt, he had no idea where such thoughts suddenly came from, but he felt that this dream had done something to his body. He could feel how his cheeks started burning and quickly turned onto his stomach.

These thoughts had to stop.

He hated his brain for doing this to him, he didn't want to have such thoughts about Daehyun, he wanted to have Daehyun as a friend, why did his head give him such dreams?

He looked at Daehyun's face through the darkness and sighed. Why did this guy have to look so good? No... That was actually not the question. He clenched his fist. Why did he have to be gay?