Paralyzed Heart

They will never know.

Jake's POV

6 November, the day I screwed everything for mom and did something I'll blame myself for for the rest of my life.

It's funny how people who know you claim that they know you, when they really don't. They spend everyday of their life with you and don't even know what's going on inside. They assure you that they'll be there for you when you need them, without even trying to find out when that moment will come.

I walk down a street, girls pass me by and give me flirty smiles. I walk down the school hallway, the bimbos do the same. They're attracted to my looks but they don't have the slightest idea about what I've been through and what I've done. They don't know me, they never will.

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I parked my car outside the graveyard and entered it after taking a deep breath. I walked passed a couple of graves and tried to remember which one I visit every year and cry over it.

I finally found it and tried my level best to hold back the tears that were ready to spill any moment now. I read the name on the grave stone over and over again, when the a tear rolled down my cheek. I wiped it away but my face was practically wet with tears now and I couldn't control it. I had lost someone who once meant the world to me and still does.

I bet no one has ever seen me cry. I can be a badass, hardcore and even a dickhead at times but I break too. Honestly, I never even let my emotions out in front of people because of my ego. I always fear that it'll show me as someone who's weak.

I fell on my knees infront of the grave and cupped my head in my hands while crying.

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Mia's POV 

"Where could he possibly be?" Rebecca asked with a worried expression plastered on her face.

"Didn't you ask his mom?" Mike asked and looked straight at me.

"I went over to his place the other day, but his mom wasn't at home." I lied to the group because I didn't want them to know any personal issue of Jake's, if there was any.

"I'm seriously gonna kill that fucked up guy!" Nate and Rachel said in unison.

We had made a plan to meet up at a coffee shop to further think about Jake being missing. I had just come in a pink sparkly hoody because I was in no mood of getting ready. The fact that Jake was nowhere near 'around' was really bothering me. I didn't gather enough courage to go back at Aunt Lessie's I mean I had already made her cry. The thing that bothered me the most that she was crying.

Why the heck was she crying? Oh my god, I need to know!

We finally finished the stuff we had ordered and I drove back home with the girls, we were going to have a sleepover.

"Did he give this to you?" Rachel asked picking up the teddy bear Jake had given me the other day.

"Yeah," I answered and threw my body on the pink fluffy couch beside my dressing table.

"It's so adorable!" Rebecca said hugging it and I smiled.

"Oh, I almost forgot to tell you guys. My mom is having a fashion show for her new catalogue. It was supposed to be this week but my mom postponed it because she had some shirts to complete. So basically she wants us to be in the fashion show. She's short of three models so, yeah." I explained and they literally screamed with excitement.

"You mean we're going to be on television? Modeling for the Miss Scarlet?" Rachel exclaimed in unison and I nodded.

They spent a couple of more minutes squealing and screaming when my mom walked in the room.

"Everything ok?" She asked concerned.

"Yeah, they're just excited about the fashion show." I replied and my mom's face lit up.

"So, you girls will do it?"

"Of course!" The girls shrieked and my mom gave them a hug.

I felt happy in that moment but something just held me back. There was something that constantly bugged no matter what I did. That funny feeling was a concern towards Jake. I barely like that guy! Why am I worried?

Hey guys! So this was just another chapter that had further hints about Jake's past. I hope you guys liked it so please don't forget to vote and comment. 

~V 

P.s i know this was a really short and boring chapter but the next chapter is coming soon!