Hyukjae's POV
I laid in bed and stared up at the ceiling. Of all the ways my life could have panned out I honestly didn't see this one coming. Jessica says she's pregnant with my child, but I honestly don't believe it's mine. She's with a different guy every week, and the only reason I'm staying with her is to get a DNA test done. In the mean time I've manage to hurt the one person I never wanted to hurt. I lied to Shay, when I said I didn't remember my promise. I remember, and I fully instead to keep it. Sadly I got caught up in some other shit that I didn't expect.
I know she's hurting, and I can see it in her eyes. She won't even come close to me anymore, which really hurts, but I can't say I blame her. She thinks I'm dating her best friend, and I hope to god she doesn't know about the pregnancy. I sighed deeply as I sat straight up. I have never been so miserable in my entire life. I don't want to be with Jessica, and in fact I've never wanted to be within 100 feet of her. I actually want to be with Shay. She's the only person to ever choose me first, and was the first person the actually want to be with me. I wanted her to do some growing up, before we got together, but as she's grown up it's gotten harder to stay away. She grew up beautifully, but that's not why I want her. She's always been by my side, and supported me though my hardest times. She doesn't complain, she doesn't come to me always wanting something, and she's always been bluntly honest with me, which I definitely need at times.
I never wanted things to turn out this way for us. I never wanted to see her in such pain. I defiantly don't want her in Yesung's arms. I know Shay could do better than me, and I know Yesung is the better choice. I just don't want to give up on us, before there can ever be an us. If she becomes happier with Yesung, then I'll leave it be. I want her to be happy, but I just hope that she can be happy with me. After I get this mess figured out I plan to try, and get her back. That is unless I'm too late. If she falls for him, then I'll step aside. She's the only one who's ever made me selfless, made me feel wanted, and surprisingly taught me what love feels like. But if she grows to love him more than she ever loved me, then I'll let her go, because I love her.
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