Shay's POV
I've been calling Yesung for days, but he has yet to answer one of my calls. I understand he's out of town, because he's setting up promotions in Japan. He plans on making a Japanese album, and I know he would do great. I just wish he would answer me, so I could tell him the news. Hyukjae is against me telling Yesung, because he doesn't want the drama. I for one thing Yesung deserves to know I'm carrying his child. Whether he wants to help care for it or not is his choice, but I want to at least give him the choice from the start. Besides, I've never been good at keeping things from him anyway. I know he's still hurting, but he deserves to know this. I just hope I can get a hold of him, before it gets spread to the public. No one knows I used to date Yesung except for our band mates, our staff, and our managers. But now everyone knows I'm dating Hyukjae, and the rumors are starting to be spread about us that just aren't true. If they ever found out that I used to date Yesung, then the press would never let me down. I'd probably be seen as a whore in the public's eyes, regardless of how I feel about both Yesung and Hyukjae.
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"Dammit!" I yelled in frustration.
"Still nothing?" Hyukjae asked as he walked in with a now fully awake Violet. I then smiled at Violet as Hyukjae handed her to me.
"Hi sweetie." I said to her as I kissed her cheeks. She then giggled, which warmed my heart. Hyukjae then sat down next to me, and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. I then sighed to myself as I looked over at him, while I positioned Violet to sit on my leg with my arm wrapped around her waist to keep her steady. "No, I haven't. I keep being sent to voicemail." He then nodded and kissed my cheek softly.
"He'll call you back when he sees it. I'm sure of it. He still loves you after all." Hyukjae said as he rubbed my left shoulder in a comforting manner.
"What if he doesn't answer me? We did break up not long ago. I'm sure he's still hurting over it."
"You weren't doing so well either, even after Violet was born. I know you still love him, and a part of you always will." Hyukjae reminded me.
"Is that bad?" I asked Hyukjae with a worried expression. He then smiled and shook his head.
"No, Angel. It's not a bad thing."
"So it doesn't bother you that a part of me will always love him?" I asked carefully.
"No, because I used to see how happy he made you. I can't be bothered about it, when I know that he was the one to make you smile while I was hurting you. If anything I'm grateful to him, because he healed your heart in many ways. He also taught you how to protect your heart. For that I'll always be grateful to Hyung." I then smiled at Hyukjae.
"I just don't want to be the reason your friendship falls apart." I said honestly.
"Don't worry about that. We tease each other a lot, but we are still close. I'm sure we'll be able to patch things up. Especially since you are carrying his child. We can be one big happy extended family." He said with a hopefully smile. I then laughed softly at him. His expression then turned serious. "He'll be fine, Shay. He's love for you was so great that he was going to ask you to marry him, until we found out you were adopting Violet. If it weren't for Violet, he would have married you." My eyes then widened.
"Are you serious?" I asked in astonishment.
"I wouldn't lie about this. He had the ring picked out and everything. But when he found out about Violet he sat down and had a long talk with me."
"What did he say?" I asked as I turned sideways to face Hyukjae, and then moved Violet from my leg to my lap.
"He told me to take good care of you, and to show you all the love and attention you deserve. He told me that I better not make him regret his decision, because giving you up is the hardest thing he's ever had to do. But he said he was doing it, because he didn't want you to think about what could have been." I then sighed to myself.
"He never knows how to be selfish does he?" I asked and Hyukjae chuckled.
"Not when it comes to you he doesn't." Hyukjae then ran a hand through my hair. "Shay." He called.
"Hmmm." I answered.
"If you don't feel happy with me, then just tell you. I'm not going force you to stay with me. Of course I love you and want you to stay, but if you want to be with Yesung then I won't stop you." He whispered sadly. I then looked over at Hyukjae as touched his face with my free hand.
"I do love you, Hyukjae. You and Violet make me happy. Of course I was happy with Yesung, but at the end of the day you were always on my mind. What Yesung and I shared was special, but what I share with you and Violet is special too. I couldn't imagine where I'd be without you both." He then smiled, and kissed me softly.
"Is it bad that I selfishly wanted you to say that?" I then chuckled softly.
"No, it's ok to be selfish when it comes to love."
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