Shay's POV
I'm at home on the couch just thinking things over. From where things started to where they are now. How my feelings have changed and haven't. I love Yesung, because he's sweet, caring, comforting, loving, and really just everything I've ever wanted in a boyfriend. Then there's Hyukjae. The man who still makes my heart race, and my feelings for him are still very strong. I don't want to love him, but every time I see him it reminds me of the day we met. How sweet he was, how he tried to make me laugh, and how he taught me to dance. I always wanted to impress him, and all I every really wanted was for him to love me. I then sighed as I laid down on the couch. I have to choose one, and try to let the other one go. I just wish my feelings could have an on and off switch. I then jumped slightly as I heard a knock at my door. I then looked over to the clock, and it read 12:00 A.M.
"Who would be knocking on my door at this hour?" I asked, before getting up and answering the door. My eyes then widened when I saw Hyukjae. "What are you doing here?" I asked calmly.
"Can we talk? I have something I need to tell you." He said as he avoided eye contact.
"Ok, but make it quick." I said as I let him in, and closed/locked the door. We then went and sat down on the couch with little to no space between us. I then turned my body to face him. "Ok. Start talking." I said with a sigh.
"First off it's about Jessica's baby."
"What about it?"
"You can't adopt it."
"Why not?" I snapped.
"Because it's my baby too." I then laughed bitterly.
"That doesn't matter. The adoption will be final in the next month. Besides, since Jessica didn't put you on the paperwork, then you have no say over what happens to the baby."
"But I-"
"Next subject." I cut him off. He then sighed.
"Ok. Next I wanted to ask if maybe we can schedule a visit ever so often, where I can see my daughter after she's born." He said with a hopeful expression. My expression then softened.
"Hyukjae, I'm not going to keep you away from your child. Jonghoon and I would never want that. You can come and see her anytime, and help however you want." He then nodded, and took a deep breath.
"You probably don't want to hear the last thing I have to say." He said sadly.
"Might as well it get all off of your chest while you're here." I said with a small laugh. He then gave me a small smile.
Hyukjae's POV
"I just wanted to tell you the truth about Jessica and I." I lied. "I don't love Jessica. Honestly I've never really cared much for her. I have no idea how I ended up in her bed that night, but I want you to know I never wanted to hurt you. I never planned to hurt you, Shay." I then felt guilty, because my next sentence wasn't at all true. I felt a lump grown in my throat as I said the words I never wanted to say. "You've always been like a little sister to me. That's why I told you to wait 3 years ago. I didn't want to break your heart, and I was hoping it was just a simple crush. I was going to tell you the truth, but this situation gave me no other choice. So if you're wanting to raise my child, because you want me then I have to tell you that's never going to happen. I see you as my kid sister. Nothing more, nothing less." Shay then glared at me in an angry manner. I'm sorry Shay, but you have to move on. The only way you'll truly move on is if you think you don't have a chance.
"First off, how dare you lie to me!? You gave me hope that we could actually be a couple! Second, I was never going to raise this child, because I thought it was yours! I want to raise this child, because its not wanted by its real parents! That alone can scar a person! Therefore I want to raise it as my own! I want to give that baby girl all the love, and care she will ever want or need! I'm damn sure not doing it for you! Now get the hell out of my house, before I have security throw your ass out!" She screamed. I then nodded, before I got up and headed towards the door. Before I touched the nob I turned my head slightly, and began to say one last thing.
"I'm sorry things have to be this way between us." I said sadly.
"Yeah, me too." She said bitterly. I then opened the door, and closed it gently behind me. I then walked into the elevator, pressed the button, and waited for the door to close. I then felt tears run down my face, while I began to whisper to myself.
"I'm sorry, Shay. I want you to be happy. You should be with Yesung, and I'm doing this because it's what's best for you. I love you so much." I then brought my hands to my eyes, and wiped my tears away as the elevator doors opened. I then walked out with red puffy eyes, and a broken heart.
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