When walking home I tried to clear my mind, but without succes. My thought kept running back to the same. Rose. Without thinking where I was going I looked up and suddenly realized I was nearby the building from yesterday so I decided to pick up my car.
When the building came into my view I immediately saw that there were a lot of cops and firetrucks. I walked farther and stopped when I stood next to my car. I looked up at the building and my eyes wandered to the rooftop, where I stood last night. Suddenly a cop stood in front of me, blocking my view.
"May I help you?" He asked. I suddenly realized I was not supposed to be here. I had just ignored the securityrope.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I came to pick up my car." His eyes wandered from me to my car.
"Is this yours?" He asked.
I nodded, not knowing why he would want to know that.
"So that means that you were at the party last night? Could we ask you some questions?" I should have seen this coming. Actually I would rather just get away from this place but they probably wouldn't let me go so I decided to just get this done fast.
"Yes." I said and he immediately asked someone to follow and to write down my answers.
"I don't know if you already know, but someone died here last night." I nodded. I felt the tears coming up but I needed to contain them. I couldn't cry right now.
"Have you seen that person before the murther?" Oh so they already knew it was a murther? That went fast.
"Yes I did." I knew it would be safer to just tell the truth.
"Where?"
"At the roof." I confessed. I was bored by how slow this conversation went. I just came to grab my car, I didn't prepare for this so I decided to just tell the whole story.
"And I pushed her..." I began. I saw his face pulling a confused look like he didn't expect me to confess this easily. "She was treathening my family for 8 years now and she was going to shoot my brother and his fiancé so I did it to save them."
"Yes, she was a criminal so we're not going to punish you for what you did but we will probably need you to tell us the whole story so could you please come with us to the police station?" Actually I didn't really feel like it but I assumed I wouldn't get out of it so I stepped inside the car and they took me off to the police station.
***
When I walked out of the police station I felt relieved. I had no idea why, maybe I did feel no so good after what I did and I just needed to tell someone.
I walked, again, to the building to grab my car and this time nothing was going to stop me. I had been in the police station for 2 hours and it felt like I had done nothing. I still needed to look for a dress for the wedding. I got into my car and pulled out of the parking lot.
When I was out of the street I realized it was the first time I got away there without looking backwards... to the roof. Maybe I was getting ovet Rose and with Rafael's help I would defenitely, I knew that.
***
I pulled on the zipper from the dress and turned around to look at myself in the mirror. I liked this dress. It was a light shade of blue and had pink flowers on the short sleeves.
I decided this was going to be the dress. I didn't have much time left so I didn't have much of a choice, but I was glad I found one I liked so soon.
I payed for the dress and left the mall, going back to my apartment.
Coming in, I felt empty. I had no idea where this feeling was coming from, but I felt like something was missing, not knowing what.
I got myself some food from the fridge and settle myself in the seat putting the tv on. I put on some netflix and just relaxed.
***
When I opened my eyes I saw light from the sun coming through the window. I was still lying on the sofa and the tv was still on.
I looked at the clock when I realized it was already afternoon. Shit. I got up fast and immediately pulled my new dress out of the closet. I pulled it on and went to the bathroom to fix my hair and put on some make-up.
I grabbed all my stuff together and went out. It was pretty warm so I was happy I didn't take my jacket with me. I decided it was better to walk, it wasn't that far. It was at the place where Jane and Rafael first kissed and had their talks. I needed to admit that it was pretty romantic.
***
After 5 minutes I arrived at the wedding. There were a lot of people already but I didn't see Jane nor Rafael anywhere. I sat down on the first row next to a few empty seats.
In front of me was Petra, waiting for Rafael and Jane to show up. I saw that she was getting nervous. Suddenly her face expression changed.
"Omg, she's here." She mumbled. I turned around and expected to see Jane but instead I saw a woman I'd never seen before. Petra ran towards her and took her into a hug.
It was still weird for me to see Petra like this, she had changed a lot the past few years. Rafael had made that clear for me but I wouldn't believe him. She had gotten so nice and caring. But I knew from the moment she hugged the woman so tightly she really meant a lot to her. After a little talk and even a kiss with the lady, who I still didn't know the name of, she came back to the front.
The dark-haired woman sat next to me. "You must be Luisa." She said and turned to face me.
"Yes" I said "and who are you?"
"Oh, I'm sorry. I'm Jane." She said when she shook my hand. I was surprised when I heard her name. It was Jane, like the other Jane. That must have caused a lot of trouble.
"Nice to meet you." I said and smiled.
"Nice to meet you too." I turned back and heard a bus stopping behind me. I turned around and saw Rafael coming out of it. He came forward and said something to Petra I couldn't quite understand. Then, I saw Jane next to me mumbling thank you to Rafael. I realized I had missed a lot, but I was glad I was here now.
Suddenly everyone stood up and turned their faces to the bus. So did I.
This time it were the twins and Mateo coming forward followed by Jane.
***
The ceremony was beautiful... just beautiful and they both looked so happy. I walked home and thought about the wedding. Would I ever get married? Would I even be in a relationship ever again? I couldn't think like this. I felt like I was betraying myself and Rose. Although, it's weird because I already betrayed her, and because of that she's not here anymore. But how can this mean so much to me? I thought I stopped loving her, that I was over her like about a year ago? How can it come back that easily? Maybe I just never was but I wanted to believe it. I decided to put all these thoughts aside and focuse on what I had... my family, finally. Rafael and Jane were leaving for their honeymoon tonight and after that I would spend all the time I missed with them.
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