Lost myself // yoonmin ( m.yg • BTS)

15 - hungover

"A real hangover is nothing to try out family remedies on. The only cure for a real hangover is death."

YOONGI POV

The music only added to the horrible headache I was having. I tried to keep my posture straight but it seemed that the alcohol from the previous night still had it's hold on a part of my brain. And greatly enough, it happened to be my cerebellum.

The dancing didn't help to ease my muscles that were aching beyond any words to describe it, even though this was comparatively a short practice. Why was it a short practice?

Because for some reason Bang-pdnim had cleared everything out of our schedules except for a few hours of dance practice. I really loved that man's timing.

"Hyung where were you last night?", A worried taehyung asked while we sat during our break.

"Yeah I have been meaning to ask the same but since we were getting late in the morning, I figured later," Jin hyung added.

"What do you mean? I was in my studio", I said as I took another sip from my water bottle.

"Well you were, but security said you left and then came back and then left again for quite a few hours," Jin retorted.

"I went to take a walk alright. The weather was quite good last night," I replied a bit incoherently, my voice dry even though I had just drank an entire bottle of water.

"You take a walk for a few minutes not hours," Jin hyung said.

"Okay alright, I am sorry hyung. Now can you pls let me close my eyes for a while?". And I didn't wait for the answer as my eyes closed shut.

On any other day I would've replied with something like "And the oldest is not supposed to act like a makane, but I guess we can't have that can we?."

But right now, all I wanted to do was sleep. Really me right? But this wasn't the 'I want to sleep for the sake of sleeping' but more like 'My brain ain't working, I'm shutting down' kind of sleep.

It was an advantage really. I could have a hangover and no would judge me for sleeping cause I mean that was the usual me right?

It was the same way no one really commented or bothered me when I didn't talk much or interact much and just sat there, buried in my own world. Because I was known for not being all too loud or outgoing. That was me.

So technically no one could really tell if I was thinking about what I would eat later or if I was too busy fighting my demons, special guests of my mind.

"Okay! Everyone up, Only an hour more, let's go!," Sung deuk hyung announced as he clapped his hands to get our attention.

I opened my eyes slowly and reluctantly got up. Dizziness hit me as I started to walk. I halted in my tracks and blinked my eyes, to see clear and regain control.

I slowly started walking again, to my position. Luckily, everyone was so busy talking that no one noticed. I mentally thanked their asses for being so ignorant at times like this.

But to my dismay, Sung deuk hyung saw it very clearly and he came up to me and gently asked,

"You okay there yoongi?".

"Oh I'm good hyung. Just napping after effects, you know" I said with a small laugh.

"Well if you want to sit out, it's okay. It's the last hour anyway," he suggested.

"Nah it's okay hyung. I mean if I don't practice then who's going to? These idiots?'' I said haughtily looking at them.

"Very well said," Hyung said chuckling.