Elites of Seoul | Taejin ✔️

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This chapter is important ;)
Seokjin's Pov:

"Taehyung, I personally feel as though you want a lot from me, but you give nothing to me. Everything you do is not because you want to be a good husband or because you want to try and have a good marriage, it is because you want to appear as one.

I think you believe there is a guide on how to be the perfect husband, and there is not. You want me to be your biggest supporter, well I need you to be mines as well, I need you to listen to me. You do not listen to me, and even if you listen to me, you end up controlling the situation.

I understand somethings you try to control to make my life "easier," but let's be honest you are controlling. You have lived your life getting whatever you want, whenever you want it that you shut my voice down when it does not align with what you want to hear.

Am I stubborn, yes, I am very stubborn, and I become even more stubborn when I feel like I am being controlled. I do not like it, I made this clear to you while we were dating. And that is another issue I have with us before we got married you loved all these things about me, you love the fact that I was not falling over to please you, but all of a sudden we got married, and it's as though you want to change me.

You want me to reshape who I am to please your circle, please you, and cater to your needs. If I cannot be myself, I cannot be a genuine husband to you. I need you to love the Jin you marry, not the Jin you hope I become.

I love you, I know I have been neglectful in saying that to you lately, but you have been doing too much lately. However, just because I don't tell it to you, does not mean I do not love you. I accepted your proposal and married to you because I see a future with you, not because I saw myself gaining something.

You want me not to see my friend who is a guy, but yet you want me to hang out with all your friends, who are guys? Does that make any sense to you?

I need you to speak to me, not at me, and you do that a lot Taehyung. You always want to have the final word, and for our marriage to work, it cannot be like that. For example, yesterday's dinner, I expressed I was not okay with it, but guess what you forced it anyway because it's what you want.

You speak to my parents daily, because you feel that is what a husband is supposed to do. You want everyone to see us as happy, where I really don't give a shit what the outside world thinks, what I really care about is how we truly are at home, how you are making me feel, and how I am making you feel.

Taehyung we really have a lot to work on, the one thing I can honestly tell you is that I am here with you, but I need you to understand that I need personal space at times. You have an anger issue, and I don't know what caused it. You went into a panic last night because you felt as though you weren't in control of the situation, you couldn't read me and where I was at, and that bothered you. You needed me contained and control until I was calm so you could figure me out, but what you truly didn't realize is that you hurt me. You brought me back to what Jungkook's parents did to me.

If you investigated me then, I am very sure you know everything about Jungkook and I. It's not that I didn't want to share with you my past, it really has nothing to do with that. Jungkook's parents hated me, they move their son away to Seoul just so they could get him away from me. They offered me fucking money Taehyung to...."

At this point, I couldn't stop myself from crying, he had awakened something that I wanted to leave behind me. I had already struggle every time I had to face Jungkook, I never expected in my life to see him again. We severed that relationship a long time ago. Upon me seeing him here in Seoul, we had come to our own terms to leave everything in the past, and that's really what I wanted to do, I wanted the past to stay exactly where it was.

I felt Taehyung arms around me as he pulled me into his chest, "I am sorry, Jin, I know, I know, and I am sorry. I don't want to hurt you, and I don't want to see you crying every day. That's why I wanted you to share this with me and be honest with me about everything. I waited for you to Jin, but you didn't, and it was driving me crazy.

I can't imagine what you went through, and I don't want to make it worse. I want to help you take care of everything. I was thinking maybe we can adopt her back, or fight for custody?"

"ARE YOU CRAZY?!"

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A/N: I usually leave at this time.