Elites of Seoul | Taejin ✔️

Love

This chapter will give a small peak in the past as well as give you some insight from Taehyung's Pov 😉.

Seokjin's Pov:

"I- I need to go," I wanted out of this place and away from him, but as I got up and tried walking out of the house, the room was spinning, and my legs felt weak. I tried holding onto the chair for support, but instead, I slipped, and everything turned black.

Taehyung's Pov:

I sat down and watched Jin on the bed, waiting for him to wake up. I had brought him from his parent's house to one of our hotels and had a doctor check him out. They said he fell into a shock and should be okay after getting some rest. I figured that's what had happened to. It was the same way I felt when I found out everything. The difference is I had no one to care for me, but in his case, he has me.

I knew everything I told his parents would have come as a surprise to him and his parents too. He really thought he could keep such a massive secret like that away from me. I practically begged him to tell me the truth, but instead, he lied, even lied about the death of his daughter. I don't think he believed me when I told him he would regret lying to me.

Could I have chosen to approach the situation differently? Yes, of course, but when your husband lies to you over and over and thinks they can get away with it. It becomes my job to show him that there are no hidden secrets when it comes to our relationship. Even if I have to humiliate him in front of those he loves and looks up to. I knew a lot before we got married, and I know even more now that we are married.

I had done so much for our relationship. I made us happen, I made us work. Why is he trying to destroy everything I have sought to build with him with nothing but a bunch of lies and hidden secrets. It's one thing to keep a secret from Jungkook, but I am his husband. We made vows to one another. I brought him into my home, I opened my heart to him, and yet he makes me feel like I am married to a stranger. He claims I am controlling, and I want to know everything, but how can I not be when there is no trust.

I wish he could trust me and be honest with me. He really believes he has done such an excellent job of hiding his daughter. The craziest part is him actually believing that Jungkook doesn't know about their child together. Everyone around us sees Jungkook as the sweetest, most caring husband and thinks how lucky Jimin must be to have him. He looks like a saint comparing to Yoongi and me. I really pity those who have that kind of thought.

I don't mind being the bad guy, and I don't mind getting my hands dirty every once in a while, but when I love someone, I love them deeply with no regrets.

I knew all of Seokjin's flaws, and I accepted him with them. He is not perfect, but neither am I. I have done things I am not proud of, but that's what makes me human. I am sure for the next few months, he is going to think of me like an animal, maybe even a monster, but I am okay with it. Sometimes you have to give tough love even though your heart and mind are weak for a person.

I accepted a long time ago that I don't have the type of patience Jungkook has. I can't build out and plan out my life in every detail. I can't sit and ignore the fact that my husband is pregnant for someone else while waiting for the right time to make a move. I can't have an investigator lurking around in the U.S. and updating me weekly while sending me pictures of my daughter that my ex has kept hidden from me. I can't do those things, I am not that patient.

Jungkook had everything planned out. He knew what he wanted, and he was on the path to accomplishing it. I am sure he doesn't blame Seokjin for sending their daughter away, gosh to him Seokjin is a saint and the only person he will ever truly love. However, I know I fucked up his plan when I made the decision to marry Seokjin.

But, as he told me once when I asked him what is it like to love someone, he said, "It's the scariest, yet the most beautiful thing in the world because you don't get to choose who you love, it's like you heart makes that decision for you. You can literally feel your heart beating through your chest whenever you around that person. There is absolutely nothing you wouldn't do for them, even if it means sacrificing a part of you just so they can be happy. Love brings out the good and the bad in you. It can turn you into a man of honor, or it can turn you into a monster."

I had unknowingly heard so many great things about Seokjin and the kind of person he was that a part of me ached to meet someone like him. Someone who could make me feel as deeply as he had made Jungkook feel even while being engaged. Before Seokjin, I didn't believe in love. I used to laugh at Jungkook and Yoongi when they would talk about their first love.

When I met Seokjin in Busan, I thought I was just meeting the most handsome man I had ever laid my eyes on. Someone who could satisfy my needs while I travel back and forth. It never dawned on me that I was meeting the man who my best friend was never able to get over. What's even sadder is that by the time I found out, it was far too late, my heart and mind was already made up that he is the one for me. But, like he said, "you don't get to choose who you love."