Elites of Seoul | Taejin ✔️

Awake

Seokjin's Pov:

The bright light in the room was blinding me. It was all white, but I couldn't see anything else. Wherever I was felt surprisingly relaxed. I thought hell would feel a lot different than this. I know to take my own life, that's the only place I would expect to be, but why does it not feel like that is where I am.

I tried moving my hands to wipe my eyes, but it feels as though something is holding me down. My body felt strangely numb too. I wonder if I bled out too much.

"Seokjin, can you hear me?" I felt my face turn into a frown as an unfamiliar voice called out my name.

"Please answer me; your husband is worried about you." I closed my eyes and opened it blinking a few times. My eyes adjust to the light, allowing me to look around to find myself in the Taehyung's medical room. Why was I here? Aren't I dead? I asked myself, but then my eyes found the doctor.

"Dr. Levi?" Why was he here?

"Yes, it's me. How are you feeling? Do you feel weak? You lost a lot of blood there..." I blocked out everything he was saying as I tried sitting up as reality sunk in. I was still alive, in Taehyung's home with his doctor. How did this happen? Why could I never succeed in killing myself? This was the third time, and I failed yet again.

"Why are you here? Why did you save me?" I asked Dr. Levi, cutting him off. He looked at me, confused.

"Your husband called me. He is worried about you. He is a mess right now, why did you do this?"

Why did you do this?

It sounded like a simple question, yet I couldn't answer it. There was a lot of reason why I had done it. Reasons that no one would understand. He would probably think I am crazy and recommend me to see a psychiatrist. I wasn't crazy, though, just tired. Something I don't think anyone would be able to understand. Sometimes pain becomes too much; it makes you tired; it empties you. It leaves you with doubts, worries, anger, and the inability to trust anyone.

Knowing he wouldn't understand me, I decided to ignore his question. It's not like him knowing he would help me; he would only judge me. "W-where is Taehyung?"

"Umm, I think he went to get changed. He had a lot of blood on his clothes from carrying you." He walked over and looked at me, but I turned my head to the other side, refusing to look at him. I felt ashamed. Tears fell out of my eyes. I can't begin to imagine what Taehyung must have thought when he found me.

"You know, son, I have known Taehyung a long time. I delivered him. I have been his doctor all of his life, and today is the very first time I had ever witness fear in his eyes. He was so worried about you. I could hear his voice breaking when he called me. Taehyung has never called me like this before. He rarely makes house calls. I don't know what happened here today; I don't understand why you did what you did. I hope it's not because he is hurting you, and if he is, you can tell me, even though I have been in this family for years, I could help or point you in the right direction, I promise.

He says you are pregnant, but wants to abort the baby, if he is forcing you to do something you don't want to do, tell me, I can help. You don't have to abort the baby. I know his family can be strict, and he is very headstrong, but you have a choice here. This is your body, your baby, he can't force you to get rid of it.

I-I just don't understand why he would do that, though. For as long as I have known him, he has always wanted a son, someone like him who he could trust to take over the business after him." Dr. Levi was pacing back and forth, looking into a distant as if he was confused.

"H-he is not forcing me." I turned to face him as tears rolled down my cheek. I tried moving more, but I couldn't, I looked up to see a blood bag that was connected to my arm. I guess I had bled too much; he was giving me blood.

"What do you mean, are you sure you don't have to lie? I won't tell him." Dr. Levi stopped and looked at me.

"I am not lying. He thinks I want to abort the baby, but I never told him that. Things got out of control with us earlier. He didn't abuse me, though, if that's what you want to know. It's just a lot, too much for me to explain. Where is he? Can I talk to him myself, please?"

Before Dr. Levi could respond, we heard a crashing sound, almost as if it was coming from downstairs. My eyes widen in a panic. "Is everything okay?"

"I don't know, let me go check. Please stay here and do not move your body has been through a lot." Dr. Levi warned me sternly and walked out of the room.

I started feeling dizzy and leaned back onto the pillow with worry about what was going on. Placing my hand on my stomach, I silently wonder if I could keep this child.

******

Taehyung's Pov:

"This better not be a lie!" I glared at Dr. Levi as I hurried towards the room Jin was in.

He grabbed me and pulled me into the library upstairs before I could turn the corner towards where Jin's room was. "Taehyung, we need to talk."

"About what? Listen, that fucker down there deserves to die, he-"

"No, not about him, but your husband. He attempted suicide, and this is not something to be taken lightly. He needs psychiatric care, someone to watch him. He is likely to try this again. It's hard for me to read him, but he seems to be hurting, and I don't think his mind-"

I cut Dr. Levi off before he could continue, I know where he was going with this, and I didn't need it. "Listen, my husband is not mental. He does not require psychiatric care either. He has gone through some stuff and just needs time to heal. I am the cause of what happened this morning. I said some things I shouldn't have said. I pushed him over the edge, but don't worry; I know someone who can help him. He is going to be okay, we are going to be fine. Just don't bring this up to him, I don't want him thinking he has a mental problem, he does not. He is only hurting, you know.

Something I doubt many would understand, it took me until he did this to know where pain can take a person. I truly grateful you came by today and thank you for saving his life, I will forever be indebted to you for this. I know I can trust you too. As for his mental care, let that be my worry. Your focus needs to be making sure he is back to good health, and this is never reported anywhere. I want no medical records of it, do you understand?" I searched his eyes, making sure he understood every bit of my words.

"Yes, sir, understood."

"Good, now let me go see my husband." I patted him on the shoulder and walked out of the room. However, I stopped and turned back to him, "can you go make sure he is good. I have to do something before I come and see him." Dr. Levi game me a nod and walked out of the room.

I walked back into the library, closing the door, and dialed the only number of the person who I knew undoubtedly could help Jin.

"Well, if it isn't the great Kim Taehyung. I thought you forgot about me."

I rolled my eyes and let out a sigh, "If you are over being dramatic. Can you stop by the house? I need your help with something."

"My help? Now, this is odd, what did I do to deserve such a request?"

"Oh, shut up and come on over before I call Hoseok and tell him you are pregnant for his husband." I snapped at Jimin, who went silent.

"Fine, I will be there."