Elites of Seoul | Taejin ✔️

Relatable

Seokjin's Pov:

Jimin had me crying, crying about what he went through, and my situation at the same time. I would have never in a million years guess he had been through something similar. He didn't even act like it or show it.

I mean he is rich, has everything he could want, at least that's how it seems, yet he had a broken past like me, how was that even possible?

"I don't know I can ever get to the point of loving myself. My situation was very similar to y-yours. Except I had the baby, her name is Iseul. My brother was my only support, but he didn't know what happened. No one knew. Taehyung only found out recently; he is the first person I ever confessed to what happened to me.

I have always felt less than undeserving of things. Like Taehyung, I don't deserve him, but my heart wants him, you know? It's unfair for me to burden him with so much pain too. I didn't want to tell him what I had endured, and I didn't want to taint the image he had of me. He was the first guy after everything that happened to me to make me feel something; he is to me what Yoongi is to you.

I have so much anger in me. I have a daughter who I don't know how to care for her. I have released the burden onto my brother to do that. I love her, but not the kind of love that makes me miss her. Every time I see her, I am reminded of everything that happened. Taehyung doesn't think it's right for me to see her like that, but I can't help it. I know she is innocent, I know he didn't ask for any of this, but it's hard.

And I know I am selfish, but-"

Jimin pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. "let me hug you for a moment. You are not selfish, you are hurting, you are angry, you are broken, you are suffering, and you are in pain. You are a lot of things, but you are not selfish."

"I wanted to abort our b-baby, I am pregnant for him, and I wanted to get r-rid of it." I cried into Jimin arms, how could he say I wasn't selfish, I am.

"It still does not make you selfish. Jin, what you have been through is not something easy to digest. I commend you for even having that baby. I could not have done it, gosh, I think I would lose my mind if I did, but you didn't, you gave birth to her, and you still made sure she is taken care of. She might not be with you, but she is safe. You acknowledge that she is your child, and that is more than enough.

Indeed the world might view your decision to hand her over to your brother as you been selfish, but screw what they think. Where were they when you were being ripped of your choice? I think you need to stop focusing on what Taehyung might want, or anyone else and start focusing on what you want. What is it going to take for you to start living? What is it going to take for you to move forward, I am not saying to forget what happened, we could never forget it, but how can you move past it and onto the next stage of your life.

And I don't want you to say you can do it for Iseul, Taehyung, or the baby. I want to know how you can do it for Seokjin because doing it for yourself will help you to love them unconditionally without worries. When you can accept and own what you have been through, you can walk, and talk in confidence because you have made a decision not to allow your past to destroy all the beautiful things that are here and will come in the future.

Take me for an example. I am in a fucked up situation, but I still hold on. I still have hope, and I want to help you get to a place where you can truly live, not survive, but live. You have an amazing husband; I can't tell you how amazing he is. I wish I had snatched him up back then, but I just never saw him like that.

He loves you, I mean he fucking loves you. Taehyung has never been serious about anyone. For him to be hurting and to let me in, to know what's going on, I know he is hurting and does not want to lose you. He is the most secretive person I know, he hates the world knowing his business, and I know it took a lot of him to call me.

I know he doesn't understand your pain, and he doesn't need to. It's your pain; you alone will ever know how much it hurts, how suffocating it is. He can't know that and he won't, all he knows right now is that his heart is breaking and he is scared, he is afraid of losing you. I know he comes off very arrogant and controlling at times, but he means well, at least to you, I am sure."

I looked at him in disbelief, I couldn't believe we had been through something so similar, yet he seemed so strong, so wise, he had grown from a situation I remained stuck in. How would he even feel if he knew Jungkook's father raped me. Judging from how he was talking, he didn't know, and I needed him to know.

"J-Jimin, I am sorry I judge you, I am and I do want your help, I do. I have never met anyone I could relate to as much as you, but there is something I think you should know. I don't want you to hate me if you find out afterward, so I will rather be the one to tell you."

Jimin looked at and rubbed my hands, "it's fine; you can tell me anything."

"Do you know who raped me?"

Jimin eyes widen, "oh no, please don't tell me it's Jungkook. Fuck! I always knew there was something off between the two of you, my goodness, please don't tell me I married to a rapist, o-oh m-my, n-no, I-" Jimin started crying and holding his stomach.

"JIMIN!" I screamed out his name, "Jungkook didn't rape me."

He lifted his head up and looked at me, "h-he didn't?"

"No, h-his f-father did." I said almost choking on my words, every time I know of that man I felt sick to my stomach. 

Jimin eyes became wider than before, "M-my father-in-law?"

"Y-yeah."

"That sick twisted, perverted fuck! I fucking knew he was sick!" Jimin jumped off the bed and punched his fist in the air, "I KNEW IT! That fucker, I have seen the way he looked at me, and I told that lame fuck of a husband that his father is a pervert, and he argued with me that he wasn't, oh my gosh, w-wait, so Iseul is Jungkook's sister? Oh my fucking gosh, how the fuck did you even marry Taehyung? WOW!

PLEASE, PLEASE TELL ME YOU SENDING HIM TO JAIL?! Wait, why haven't you? Does Taehyung know this?"

Before I could respond to him, Jimin opened the door and began screaming Taehyung's name.