Elites of Seoul | Taejin ✔️

Moving Forward

Three months later

Seokjin's Pov:

Taehyung and the kids were downstairs enjoying the afternoon together while I was upstairs in our room. I was unsure where Namjoon and Jimin were; lately, I have noticed the two accompanied each other a lot when going anywhere. After learning there might be something going on with them, I didn't pry, leaving them to figure out whatever it was they were doing.

Hyun Seok was now three months and kept me busy, as well as Iseul. I was learning many things with Hyun Seok, things I never got to experience with Iseul. It made me grateful for Namjoon now to imagine all he had endured with her and know he was alone. At least I have Taehyung, who helps me tremendously even while working and traveling. He was born to be a dad. I sometimes feel like an idiot for doubting we could do this.

I lack way more in being a parent than he does, he balances out our relationship, and the kids adore him. Iseul, mostly, I am still working on getting closer and closer with her, but I think Taehyung does it effortlessly. Sometimes I know I am dragging my feet, but it's hard, and I am working on it.

Last weekend I brought her shopping, just us, no one else. We had some bonding time, and I have been listening to Taehyung being careful with my words and how I make her feel. Based on her feedback, she is genuinely happy I am her Appa, so I guess it means I have been doing something right.

I try my best to ensure she does not feel indifferent to Hyun Seok. I don't ever want her feeling like that because I know what it does to a person to feel like that. So my new mission is to dedicate more times to her and bond to draw closer as father and daughter.

My goal is to put everything behind me and continue moving forward with my family. That's why today I have decided to read Jungkook's letter, I am sure it won't do me any good, but I want to let go of all of this that stills weigh me down. I doubt I will ever be able to forget it, but I want to continue moving forward.

Unfolding the letter I had in my hands that I had taken out of the envelope, I took a deep breath and thought for a moment if it was worth reading it. Taehyung has suggested I should, so I can let that curiosity go. I guess he was right.

Sitting up on the bed, I fixed myself comfortably and began reading it.

Seokjin,

If you are reading this, then you know I am gone. It was not an easy decision for me to make doing this, but I am have been ashamed and have felt guilty ever since I learned what happened to you. This might not be the right option, and I am sure you will hate me for it, but it's all I know to do at this point.

My family has caused you to suffer, and it's my fault, along with theirs, why things happened the way it did. If there wasn't an us, you wouldn't have met them. I knew the kind of man my father was, but I never expected you to be one of his victims. He knew how precious you were to me, I thought as his son, he would respect that boundary, but it seems I was naive to think that.

I failed at protecting you back then, and as time went by. I discovered everything. I failed at protecting you then too. Still, you weren't around, and in my eyes, it was too late, and I thought I needed to protect my family. So I placed them over you, and for that, I am regretful and sorry.

When Taehyung introduced you as his fiance, I was so shocked. I thought you were there to get revenge on my family and me, but you didn't do anything. You didn't treat me with indifference or acted against me. I didn't understand it until I realize you didn't know I knew what had happened to you. So I pretended along with you.