Elites of Seoul | Taejin ✔️

Hurt

Taehyung's Pov:

Jin had fallen back asleep, but I was not able to sleep. I sat in the corner of the bedroom of the hotel and watched the sunrise through the blinds. My mind was racing with a lot of things.

For one, I felt as though I betrayed him by throwing away his pills, now after hearing all he has been through, I appear like a monster for doing that to him. I so wish he had remained honest with me from the beginning. I am also angry at the same time, but I don't want him to think I am angry at him, but then I am, so it's hard.

Being a father is something I have always wanted to be, hearing him say he doesn't want to have any more kids shatters my heart into a million pieces. It crushes a part of the future I once expected to have. I think even if he didn't tell me about what happened to him, he should've told me this much, as his husband, I believe he owed me this much before we got married. I love him with my whole heart, but truthfully, maybe I would've reconsidered my decision.

I have felt pain before, but nothing compares to what I have been feeling within the last few hours. I think I now understand what it means to have an aching heart. I don't know where we are going to go from here, I know my love for him will never change, and I will do everything I can to make sure he gets the justice he deserves when it comes to Jungkook's parents. I will kill them if he wants me to, anything he wishes for me to do when it comes to them I will, but as far as us, I don't know. I don't want to force him into doing anything, he already sees all the wrong sides of me, I don't want him to suffer anymore because of me demanding what I want versus what he doesn't. I want to be a parent, and he does not want any more kids, I don't think that something I can disregard.

Jin said he wished he knew more about me and my life before our marriage. Well, I am now beginning to understand his words because I feel the same way. I wish I spent less time assuming and investigating and more time pushing for the real truth, maybe I shouldn't have rushed us getting married either.

***Seokjin's Pov:

I laid in the bed and watched my husband cry silently in the corner of the room. I wanted to get out of the bed to console and ask him why he was crying, but I was afraid. Hearing his voice crack earlier as we spoke about me not wanting any more kids broke my heart.

After that, he didn't speak another word to me. He walked off to the bathroom and locked himself in there. I can tell he is hurt, but I don't know what to do. All I have done my entire life is cause pain to others or become a burden to them. I have been selfish in my marriage. I gave my greatest burden and mistake to my brother to take care of. Jimin and Hoseok were right about everything, they saw through me when no one else could.

I not worth any of the attention Taehyung gives me, and I am not worth him ruining the rest of his future over me. On the outside, he is as hard as a rock, but on the inside, he has a heart of gold. He made me feel like I belonged and made me feel love I never knew I would ever feel like again when I met him. I was so desperate for it that I fell so fast before I was able to grasp it all.

He is easily misunderstood, I have misunderstood him several times, his intentions when it comes to me has always been good. I just sort of wish I had thought about that more, but I was too busy trying to protect my past and keep Iseul away. He deserves someone who is going to give him the world, not someone like me who is going to take his entire world apart.

Getting off the bed, I walked over the where he was sitting with his face buried in his hands and sat next to him. He lifts his head, startled, and looked at me wide-eyed. Tears streaming down his cheeks, and his eyes are bloodshot red. Wrapping my arm around his shoulder, I hugged him towards my chest.