You Belong With Me♡ "EDITING" & "On Hold"

♡7 : Being Determined

Amelia's clung to hope as she felt nervous about the decision she took. She was panicking and it was natural. This was the first time she ever made a decision in the past 2 years of her marriage to Jacob. This time, she had to. For the sake of her baby. She packed some of her clothes, a few necessary things, their wedding photograph, took the money she saved before marriage, removed her wedding band from her finger and firmly placed it on the dressing table with a note to Jacob in which she wrote,"You're Free and So Am I, Now."

The world was strange, she always had known this fact, but now that she was stepping out of what she once considered a secured place for her, it looked more strange. Her heart was quivering if she was doing the right thing and then she thought about her baby and Jacob and she knew this was the best thing she can do for the three of them. She looked sadly at the house she loved and looked after for past 2 years, as she sat in the taxi. The sad fact was that she never had the peace and happiness she wanted, here. And, now she will be on her own and alone. Not literally alone, though. She has Sam and, her baby.

Sam looked at her in a comforting expression as they drove away, leaving behind this house, to face the world and what life would bring to them,"Everything will be fine, Amy. Please do not panic. I've talked with Julie. We can stay at her flat until we figure out, where to go"

"That's very kind and helpful of her," Amelia said in a pleasing tone, feeling grateful to Julie. Her mind was not working. She has adequate money to charter a little place to live in and manage for a few days, but it's not enough to live for a long time. She was beginning to have a headache, thinking how she would do it, considering she is pregnant and she would need plenty of money to help her get through this and for future, when her child comes. Straining to keep in touch with reality and knowing that right away she has to make for her support to make ends meet. All the way to Julie's house, she was mentally planning her scopes at having a career.

Julie's flat was a few miles off. She had not been staying here since she got a job at the hospital where she has been working as a nurse. She now remains with her parents, who lived nearby the hospital. She kept this flat because she finds it cozy and peaceful. And, it was. Amelia and Samantha have a sigh of relief as they walked inside the apartment and shut the doors behind. Afraid of making Amelia worry with fear, Samantha had not shared with her the fears she was feeling inside for being part of this runway. She didn't regret it nor she wasn't unsure, but all the time she was scared what might happen if, by some bad luck, she end up meeting. Jacob or anyone he knew, on the way. Jacob was evil, she had no idea how he managed to fool Amelia to make her fall in love with her, but if a man can bring his wife, someone he loved once, to such a state, then she can only wonder what he might do to her.

Thankfully, they had a clean escape from him.

Amelia was upset and it was pretty obvious for all her hopes failed tonight, her dreams of having a beautiful life with Jacob, the man she lived and married, shattered into pieces for the way he treated her for no fault of her and she ultimately leaving his house for she cannot give the same kind of life to their baby. She wanted to share and keep hoping that the sun might shine, but deep down she knew, being with Jacob, she will never see the sunshine. For the earth has to rotate, to have that happen. Jacob has to learn to love her to give her the love and security she always craved but he can never love her. Not when he has already planned in his mind to settle with his mistress.

Amelia had tolerated everything but she cannot tolerate this. Even if she wasn't having a baby, she knew that her time with Jacob was short-lived. The news of her pregnancy strengthened her weak resolve, helping her in forming a decision and moving out. And she is now Free.

Samantha was observing how Amelia was avoiding her, sitting on a couch by the window. Her compassionate eyes mirrored a sympathy which Amelia couldn't take anymore at the moment. She knew she owed a lot to Samantha for supporting her and being with her. She wanted to hug herself to shame and sorrow for trusting and marrying someone like Jacob. How she had loved him, suffering the tortures he had sent her way, making her life miserable. Yet, she had never once thought to give up on him and he decided to leave her. He was using her to get freedom from her by making her powerless, selling of those shares and leaving a comfortable life with his mistress. The tears couldn't hold back any longer.

"It's okay, Amy. You are free now, free from the claws of that evil man," Samantha consoled her.

"Yes, I am but after making a mess of my life," Amelia said as she cried. She paused a little and then continued,"I should have done this before, but my love for him and hopes never let me...."

"I understand. You will get through this, trust me"

Clutching Samantha's hand, Amelia said in an acknowledging tone,"Thank you Sam. If it wasn't because of your support. I do not know what I would have done"

"I care for you, you know,"Samantha said as she offered her a drink, she just made to calm her down.

"It was my problem, Sam. It's been selfish of me to not think of you and let you come with me. I just wasn't thinking straight,"She said in a regretful voice.

"It was my decision to come with you," Samantha assured her. She comforted her by putting a hand on her head saying,"what I would have done without you there anyway?"

Amelia felt emotional at that and she hugged Samantha and cried,"I know how much you care for me, I respect everything you have been doing  for me since You came to work for us after my marriage with Jacob," She let out a painful sign at the reminder of that day. How happy she had been on that day. Marrying to Jacob and moving in with him in his house and he appointed Samantha as their caretaker, who greeted them in the house.

Life, she felt was at it's best for her that day, but then, that very night she knew everything had just been an illusion. But, she had one thing to be thankful for, to what now has become her past - Samantha. She had always been very affectionate and caring towards her, to the extent of giving up her job, her means of surviving this life, for her. She felt awful,"I had no right to involve you I to this that's all. I know"

"It was my decision to make and I made it, I could not let you be alone in this, not when you're expecting a baby," Samantha said touching her arm. Then in a convincing voice said,"And, you do not need to worry so much, we will make it through. I'm hopeful."

Amelia and Samantha then together planned what they should do next. They, of course, cannot live in Julie's flat forever. Staying in this city would be a risk too, for Jacob might go to any lengths to get back to Amelia, the fact that she still has a hold in his life and business in the form of those non-transferable shares that Jacob had gifted her on their engagement as proof of his love and the security he will provide for her in terms of money, was still her's legal. This, slipped put on Amelia's mind then and now she do not how to get rid of them and be entirely free. But, one thing is certain, she is never going to claim them, nor go back to him. He can do whatever he wants with those shares and with his life. She does not consider her to be part of anything to do with him, anymore.

Her heart hurts for she had loved and trusted him, once and even though he changed, but she kept her hopes intact but she will get over everything. She might have lost everything she once wanted from life, but she now has the biggest happiness in the form of the life forming inside her. She tried too hard to think of the baby only, but if this news has gladdened her heart, the facts and realities of life and what has happened today has also affected and saddened a deeper part of her heart. She was in a very nostalgic situation, overjoyed yet deeply sad. But, at the end of everything she knew, she has something to look forward to, someone to live her life with and someone to love and be loved by.                                    

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