Diza oneshots

Complicated

Liza's pov
I turned over to see David's bare back facing me, how can I love this boy so much yet our relationship be so complicated? I rested my hand on his shoulder and slowly rubbed my thumb in circles, he started to move and he rolled over, opening his eyes as he faced me. "Hi" I smiled, "hi" he mumbled in response, this is where the complication starts.
We aren't together. In fact, we broke up four years ago. It was hard and it broke us both for a long time, we still had so much love for each other but we couldn't be together, we both had such demanding careers, we always stayed in touch, hung out when we could but in the last year, we keep having these moments, leading us to times like this where we wake up laying naked in bed next to each other or like when we end up cuddled up or making out. "Why are we doing this again?" He asked rolling onto his back and looking up at the ceiling "I don't know, maybe-" I started "we're not in love" he said cutting me off, he's so kind and caring when we have our moments at night or during the day but when he realises we've woke up like this he turns into such an asshole. "I wasn't going to say that" I replied "then what were you going to say?" He asked "maybe we are just stupid" I said, I was going to say that maybe it was meant to be but he clearly thinks otherwise, he looked sad when I said it, I knew he didn't mean what he was saying but he was saying it, just to hurt me and try and stop whatever this was. "Liza" he said, he sounded uncertain "yeah" I replied rolling on my side to look at him, his eyes met mine and he didn't say anything, he moved closer and kissed me, I obviously kissed back "no this can't happen" he said breaking apart again "why david? It's happened before and trust me that was the best two years of my life" I poured to him "I know but I can't do it again" he said "do what?" I asked starting to get annoyed with him "loose you, or something" he said looking down, it made me think for a second. He seriously can't have been avoiding this happening because he's afraid we would end up breaking up again. I thought on it for a minute and realised how hard that section of life was for both of us. "David I love you so much, I can't hide it anymore and I can't just keep sneaking around with you, it's fun obviously but I love the holding hands, the cute kisses when you sit down next to me, the warm comforting hugs, everything about a real relationship that we haven't been doing" I said to him "me too but what if we do break up again, I can't go through that again" he replied "David if you go through life only looking at the What ifs, where are you going to get?" I said to him "somewhere where it doesn't hurt" he replied, I wrapped him in a hug and he kissed my head "I love you too by the way. I really do I'm just scared of getting hurt" he said "we have to take a chance, please, for me?" I asked him "Liza Koshy, I love you with my everything, let's date" he said to me "I'm yours" I replied smiling and kissing him. This was all I have ever seen wanted since we broke up.

"I love you, I love you, I love you" david said kissing my neck "I love you too" I replied laughing a little since it kind of tickled, he kissed my head once more and then lay next to me on his bed, I had to tell him but I couldn't. I'd been hiding something from him for a couple weeks now but I just don't know how to tell him. I keep starting and going to tell him but immediately backing out when I get scared. "Babe?" David asked tucking my hair behind my ear and rolling over so he was on his side "Yeah?" I asked "I know you've been trying to tell me something for weeks and I just want to let you know that you can tell me anything in the world" he replied, I nodded and he pulled me into a hug closer "okay I do have something to tell you but I honestly don't know how to tell you it" I replied "hey, just say it I'm here for you and I'm going to love you no matter what I promise" he replied "you're sure?" I asked "liza you're making me worry, is it something bad?" He asked "no, well, I don't think so but I just don't know if I'm ready and it could change everything" I replied "wait" he said pulling a face of shock since he had an idea of what it was "do you know?" I asked him "well I'm not sure but I think I have an idea" he replied "you're pregnant?" He asked, I looked into his eyes and nodded, I was terrified "you're sure?" He asked "well i took a couple tests and they were all positive" I said "are you happy?" He asked me " I guess, are you?" I asked nervously "Liza, of course I'm freaking happy are you for real, we're going to have a mini us" he said kissing me, I smiled "thank fuck, I was terrified" I said breathing out "hey, the baby might be listening" he said putting his hands on my stomach which was slightly raised but not that different to normal. "wait so you don't know how many weeks or anything?" He asked "well I've known for two weeks and before that it was probably the night we got back together so that could make it like 12 weeks ago" I told him "12 weeks! That's so many" he replied "I'm not one hundred percent sure but i think that might have been it, I didn't take my pill for a couple days before that and then we used protection after that too so it was most likely then" I replied "Liza I'm so excited thank you so much baby" he said pulling me into a hug again, I smiled the widest smile and tears filled my eyes "damn" I said wiping them away "baby don't cry" David laughed kissing my head "I can't help it I'm pregnant and emotional" I replied wiping away my tears. I'm so happy he is happy about it, it kind of makes me happy about it too.

"She's loosing a lot of blood" I heard the doctor say, I was so beyond tired and I honestly felt like I wasn't there at all. "Hold on baby you're doing so well" David said holding my hand and kissing my head "okay Liza we're going to need you to push, this baby needs to come now" the doctor told me, I did as he said and pushed as hard as I could, which wasn't very hard since I was so tired and weak "bigger pushes Liza come on you can do it" the midwife said, I physically couldn't do it "come on Liza, I know you're so tired and I know you're in so much pain but I also know you can do it, you're so strong come on baby, for me" he said to me, I focused and pushed so much harder than before "that's it liza well done" the doctor said, I felt myself relax but I couldn't hear a cry, all of the doctors were fussing in the corner and David just gripped my hand "what's happening?" I asked weakly "I don't know, you did so good though I'm so proud of you" he said to me, I felt so faint and like I was about to pass out, "shes haemorrhaging" a midwife said, I was given an oxygen mask but I couldn't stay in consciousness.

I woke up in a different hospital bed with David sat right next to me, his head was in his hands "what's going on?" I asked trying to sit up a little, he looked up at me and his face was blotchy and his eyes were bloodshot and red "the baby didn't make it" he said breaking down again, I immediately broke down too "I didn't even get to see them" I said "I didn't either, they just told me that she was a girl and she didn't make it" he told me, it broke me even more, he put his arms around me as I cried and cried. I didn't think it was humanly possible to be so upset but the fact that the baby we were so excited to love and bring up is just gone, after nine months of wanting to meet her so much, she's just gone. "Liza I love you so much, I just have to say it because I didn't say it before you passed out and I didn't know what the outcome of that was going to be so I just need you to know how much I love you" he told me kissing my head, I couldn't reply, I was too broken. Why are things always this complicated.

A/n
Lowkey hate this one but I lowkey had to post so here you go!
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