Profile // A Spencer Reid Love Story

Chapter 30B // You're Afraid

Chloe's POV.

"Why, Chloe? I would never do any of the things that he did to you. You know that I wouldn't." Reid said, keeping his voice down as if other people could hear even though we were alone in the car.

"I thought that I knew Adam wouldn't have done those things either." I sighed, looking down at my hands. The rest of the car ride was silent.

Meeting with the ME || 3:30 PM

"No head, hands, prints, or dental records. He's not making it easy." The ME informed us as she removed the sheet that had been covering the torso that was most recently found. "What do you know about this victim?" I asked as I grabbed a pair of medical gloves and put them on. Reid did the same. 

"I haven't completed the internal exam yet, but if she's anything like the others, she'll have traces of some leather particulate in her stomach." 

"So maybe he gags them with a belt as he tortures? He's definitely a sexual sadist." I added on before looking over at Reid for his opinion. "What do we know about the offender?" He asked the ME, avoiding eye contact with me. 

"He has a decent knowledge of the anatomy, and probably zero medical training." She answered. 

I got closer to the examining table and looked closer at the torso, "He has to be pretty strong to make a clean cut like that. It's identical on all of the victims." I added as Reid joined me in examining it. 

"He followed a line like a surgeon would for breast augmentation." The ME told us as she traced the scar line with her finger. "The scar tissue looks to be about five years old."

"He removed her implants because he knew we could trace her via the serial number." Reid said before removing his gloves and pulling out his phone to text Hotch, I assumed.

"Thank you for your time." I said to the ME as I removed my gloves. Once we left, I called Hotch and he told us to meet back at the police station in a half hour. If Reid and I were on good terms, we would have most likely gone to a coffee shop or some fast food joint, but we decided to just head straight to the police station and wait for the others. 

Five minutes into the car ride back, he finally spoke up, "Chloe...I- I'm trying. I'm trying so hard for you to just give me a cha-"

"Pull over." I cut him off. "What?" He asked, seeming confused from my response. "I said pull over." I repeated through gritted teeth. Without another word, he eased off of the road and pulled over to the side, putting the car in park. Immediately, I opened the car door and got out. If we were about to have this conversation, I needed fresh air.

After a few seconds, Reid realized that I wasn't about to come back, so he also got out and walked up to me. 

"Why do you love me?" I asked, sounding more angry than curious.

"Why? Are you seriously asking me why?" He asked back, sounding completely unlike himself. Reid wasn't normally the type to have outbursts of anger and frustration. He kept them bottled up inside. 

I finally looked up at him, realizing that this was the first time that I had actually looked into his eyes ever since he told me that he loved me.

"I don't know, Chloe. Maybe because whenever I'm around you, I feel genuinely happy. Maybe because you actually listen to me when I ramble instead of cutting me off like everyone else does. Maybe because I haven't felt this way for anyone else before. I get it, Chloe. I do. You're interesting and caring and extremely beautiful and if I weren't as smart as I am, then there would be nothing special about me. So, if you don't feel the same way about me as I do about you, then just say it. I'll understand." He finished ranting to take a breath. 

I felt completely frozen. There was nothing that I could say or do that felt right in that moment. He said that he never felt this way for anyone else besides me. That meant that he didn't even feel this way for Maeve, the first girl that he ever felt in love with even if they had never met in person up until the day of her death. Him saying that made me realize how intense his feelings were for me. 

I did love him back. I had to finally face it. And the thing was, I knew it the entire time. From the moment that Hotch told me that he was almost certain that Reid had feelings  for me to when the actual words came out of his mouth. I was just completely in denial about it because I knew that if I let myself fall in love again, that I'd get hurt.

Love was full of hardships. No matter if it was full of abuse like Adam and I's love was, or if it was the love of a devoted couple who would never lay a hand on eachother. Things happen and life is extremely hard and eventually, there would be bumps in the road. But it was hard for me to see those bumps to be something as little as an argument over who has to do the dishes or who always ends up stealing the sheets in bed when all of my bumps have been him walking through the door drunk or me having to figure out the best way to conceal a black eye.

However, love was also full of chances. And if I didn't give Reid this one, then I'd lose him. 

I must have been standing there for more than five minutes, because once I snapped out of my thoughts, Reid was opening the car door so that he could step back inside. 

Quickly, I ran up to him and grabbed his arm, pulling him towards me with one hand and shutting the car door with the other. 

Before I even knew what I was doing, my lips were on his and my hands were cupping his cheeks. And if we were in some sort of Disney movie, I'm pretty sure that fireworks would have gone off in the background and the crowd applaud and whistle. However, this was real life and the only fireworks that were going off were inside of me. Our lips moved in sync as he wrapped his arms around my waist and I could've sworn that if we had all of the time in the world, I could've stayed there forever. After about a minute or so, we pulled away for air and the way that he looked at me made my knees go weak and my heart feel like it was going to burst out of my chest. 

He definitely already knew, but I still had to tell him. There were still three words that I had to say in order to not only fully let him know, but also to fully let myself know.

                   "I love you, Spencer Reid."

***Author's Note: HEY HEY HEY I HOPE THAT YOU ALL ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER!!! It was so much fun to write and I put a lot of effort into it so that it would be perfect when they finally kissed. It'd really mean a lot if you guys voted and commented on this chapter because I think that it's the best one that I have written so far and I'd love to hear your feedback! x