Disguised Feelings • 𝙟.𝙟𝙠 ✓

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

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It was 8 in the evening when the main door opened revealing Jungkook with his formal clothes.

I was watching my favorite series when he came.

He took of his coat and walked straight to his room.

I put my eyes back to the show that I was watching. Minutes later Jungkok came out from his room now with his sweat pants and plain black t shirt.

He sat beside me comfortably and placed his feet on the coffee table. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and chewed some pop corn.

"What do you thin you're doing Jungkook?" I asked, very annoyed at him.

He faced me and smiled showing his bunny teeth. I became more annoyed when I felt that my anger is melting because of his smile.

"Am I not allowed to spend some time with my wife?"

I am so closed of thinking that he need a psychiatrist.

He thinks that hanging out with me and fucking Minhi at the same time is fine.

Tears welled up in my eyes, as I look at him with despise.

His eyes widened when he saw my tears started falling, "Why? W-what happened?"

I shook my head not ready and prepare to open up yet. When will I be ready? Feeling frightened to defend myself because of what I experienced form my dad is literally b ullshit.

"Come on stand up, let's get a fresh wind to calm you." He held both of my hands and made me stand up.

Minutes later I found myself standing in front of a familiar place. The park.

The park is covered with snow and some Christmas lights shimmering. Even though it was cold there were still kids who are having fun in the playground and people who roams around the park.

As I watch the kids play, Jungkook was standing beside me, quiet.

We were in that park until the sun sets.

Jungkook held my hand and it made me flustered.

"It's cold. Do you want to eat dinner now?" He said in a serious tone now. The childish Jungkook earlier was gone.

"I w-want to stay here for a l-little longer." I let him hold my hand as we walk around the park.

This was his first time in our 4 years of marriage that he became patient and joined me at what I do.

Usually he would rather stay at home with Minnie or sleeping than hurting his legs with this minutes of walking.

We stopped by at a skating rink, there were may people who were having fun skating.

"Do you want to try?" He asked.

I faced him with wide eyes. "Really?"

He smiled and pulled me to the booth were we can rent ice skating shoes.

This is my first time skating in the ice and the thought of Jungkook is willing to teach me how to do this excites me. I really wanna do ice skating but because I was busy with work or I don't have the mood to do ice skating because I am always lonely.

He bended his knees and helped me to wear mine.

He instructed me on what to do I was looking at Jungkook very amused at how he glides through the ices.

"Y-yah Jungkookssi you better make sure I won't fall!"

"Don't worry I'll catch you."

I was holding his hand until I got the hang of it.

I laughed and was very happy when I able to balance myself.

Jungkook wrapped his huge hand on one mine and began to glide.

I was first enjoying the cold wind hitting my face and the feeling of smoothly gliding but then his speed increased, I wrapped me hands on his his arms afraid that I might loosen my grip.

I tapped his shoulders several times.

"Slow down please..." I said in a small voice. He noticed that I was shivering.

When the speed became calmer I was relieved.

He wrapped his arms on my waist and checked my state.

"Are you fine?" He asked.

"Yeah It was just a little uneasy for a beginner."

"Oh, are you hungry now?"

I nodded.

We returned the ice skating shoes that we rented. We found some noodle house near the park and decided to eat there.

Jungkook ordered some tteokboki (spicy rice cake), jjamppong (korean spicy seafood noodle)and Gimbap (korean mixed rice).

He also ordered some soju and water.

We waited for a few minutes before our food came, as soon as I smelled the aroma of the food my stomach starts to grumble.

I savoured every food and it really satisfied me.

Jungkook puts some soju, enough not to make me drunk.

We finished eating and I let out a sigh of contentment.

Jungkook paid for everything and held my hand.

We walk our way back home.

"Thank you for today Jungkook. Good night."

I waved at him and he has this stoic face and he couldn't manage to smile.

"Y/N." He called me before I can even enter my room.

"Hhmm?"

"I--." His words were cut.

"What was that?"

He straightened his posture and blow a breath before looking at me.

"I... I'm falling for you."

"W-what?" I became very confused.

"How could you say this? H-how dare you say this!"

I was bewildered because of what he said. I didn't feel any happiness. I became impatient. I couldn't understand.

He was hurting me and all. He was insensitive, he was ruthless to me and didn't think of what would I feel if he does this ridiculous things. And now he would come and hug me and tell me that he loves me?! Now this is bullshit.

I didn't noticed that my tears started to form. I am sure that I am crying because of hatred and frustration.

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