Disguised Feelings • 𝙟.𝙟𝙠 ✓

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙮

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Earlier me and Jungkook were arguing about what happend at the party.

The silence in our car is deafening.

We're on our way to my parent's house to celebrate new years eve. Some of my relatives is also gonna be there.

I tried to talk to him but he wouldn't listen. He's making it a big deal. In the end I have gave up and told him that I'm sorry and stayed silent.

I was avoiding any arguments or misundstandings with him.

"Jung--." Before I can even say his name to explain again he went out of the car with our bags. This is the first time that me and Jungkook fought as a couple os I'm not really sure what to do.

I sighed feeling hopeless.

I went out of the car and weakly walked through our house.

"Y/N!" My mom shouted my name. I faced her and showed my widest smile, I don't want to make her worry.

"I'm happy that you came love, I thought your schedule is hectic." I smiled at my mom unable to speak some proper words to reply to her statement.

I saw Jungkook talking to my cousin, Yelin. I was kind of surprise to see them comfortably interacting.

4 hours before new year we decided to have our dinner so we could spend the rest of our time at the backyard.

I helped my mom distribute some utensils to our visitors and relatives.

After that I sat on a vacant chair, somehow I felt relieved when Jungkook sat beside me.

We enjoyed our dinner with some chitchats and catching up.

They share a lot of fun experiences but was not in the mood to react. I was smiling even though I couldn't even understand what they had said.

I left the Kitchen after I helped my mom with the dishes. I went outside and our visitors and relatives were enjoying their time.

Some are sitting on a blanket that was placed on the grass and the others were seating on the chair beside the grill drinking beer.

Everyone is excited to see the fireworks.

My eyes looked for Jungkook and saw him still talking with Yelin and my other cousins.

My eyes narrowed at them. They were talking with each other since we arrived. Aren't they finished yet?

Instead of staring at them I chose to avert my gaze to the night sky. 5 minutes before new year.

The idea of ending 2019 without me and Jungkook resolving our problem saddens me. Is it hard to just forget it and move on? I already said I'm sorry even though it is clear that it was just an accident. It's not like I really cheated on him.

I thought this would be different from the last 4 years that I've been celebrating new year.

I gasped when If felt a warm hand on my arm.

"Jungkook... You scared me."

He stared at me for a while making me uncomfortable.

He pulled one of the chair and sat at it, he looked at me with his lips pouting and tapped his lap.

My forehead creased, he sighed when I couldn't get what he meant by tapping his lap.

He pulled my arm and made me sat on him.

"I'm sorry." He finally spoke after minutes of silence between us.

"It's fine. I understand if we sometimes have arguments and misunderstandings." I caressed his hair softly.

He gave a sad smile and buried his face on my neck. The whole time we were in that position we were silent and feeling each others warmth.

"Happy new year!!" Everyone shouted making me flinch. The fireworks started to burst in the sky and the music blasted.

"Happy new year." Jungkook said calmly before wrapping his arms around my waist. His usual manly scent makes me calm.

He gently pressed his lips on my shoulder. I'm sure that my cheeks is bright red right now.

He kissed my neck and shoulders several times before his lips finally made it's way to mine.

"Jungkook-ah." I said stopping him when I felt his hands inside my shirt.

Let me remind you that my relatives are here and they might  see us.

"Let's go to your room, Let's rest I know you're tired."

I nodded at what he said and stood up. We went to my room upstairs.

He placed our bags beside my bed before he dropped his weight on the bed.

I was busy taking out some hygiene stuff from my bags when Jungkook called my attention.

"Y/N."

"Hmm?"

"Come here."

I glanced at him before putting some lotion on my arms 

"Wait, I'm not done yet."

"Please."

I sighed and let go of the lotion bottle before walking towards him.

I sat beside him, his eyes are closed.

My eyes widened when he pulled my arm resulting me to drop my body to his.

He opened his eyes and looked at me intently, I looked away when I can't handle his stares.

He pulled my head making me smash my lips to his.

"Mhm..." I winced when I felt him bit my lower lip.

"You're mine. You're not allowed to leave me. Understand?"

"Yes." I said before he claims my lips again.

I felt contented and sure knowing that the one who'll took my virginity is no other than my husband, Jeon Jungkook.

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