Disguised Feelings • 𝙟.𝙟𝙠 ✓

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙮-𝙨𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣

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Thanks to my mother, I've been able to at least spend my months in my parent's house she kept me busy and healthy.

She's very persistent in making me happy, she always cook numerous dishes that made me feel like everyday is my birthday. She would introduce me to gardening because she believes that it could help me with my mental health. From time to time she visits me in my room so we could talk and discuss.

It's also been months since I've been overthinking my situation with Jungkook. We would communicate through phone, but the difference is he talks while I listen. I answer to some of his question but I only entertain those who can be answered by a yes or no.

This morning when I woke up I suddenly felt naseuos and my head is aching. I rushed to the bathroom when I feel like something's digging inside my stomach.

I let everything out through puking, I felt weak and the only thing I could do to help myself is grab on the edge of the toilet bowl and let myself puke.

After that I slowly grab on the side of the door to help myself. I gargled and washed my face with water.  This is the second that I experienced this, every passing seconds I felt like loosing my strength more thinking of the reason why I'm feeling this.

Could it be? I wanted to have a baby but considering the situation right now...

I felt like crying. I need my husband. I need him right now.

I sat on my bed caressing my stomach. I'll figure this out without hurting anyone. I heard a knock from my door followed by a sweet and calm voice.

"Dear, breakfast's ready." My mom said from the other side.

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After eating breakfast I told my mom about what happend earlier and explained that my puking every morning had already happened twice.

Her face was calm at first but when she understood everything I told her, her eyes began to pop out. It's not yet confirmed but both of us think that I'm pregnant.

"I bought 5 pregnancy test, drink plenty of water." My mom was panicking trying to open all of the PTs.

I did so many trials just to confirm of I'm really pregnant. The two lines shown on the pregnancy test made me week and feel indescribable euphoria. Positive. There's a baby inside my womb.

I rushed out the bathroom and caught my mom biting her nails due to nervousness. I wanted to jump but the idea of my baby getting hurt if I did reckless actions made me think twice.

"Ma..." I went towards her and hugged her tightly. "It's positive." My mom hugged me tighter and kissed the top of my head.

Me and my mom decided to tell this to dad later at dinner. The whole afternoon we were just inside my room talking about pregnancy stuff. The idea of me taking care a baby, my baby made me smile and excited.

Like what me and my mom planned we told dad about my pregnancy, me and my mom laughed at dad's hilarious reaction. The whole day mom made sure that I'm stress free.

When the time came that everyone's already asleep that's were my mind began to overthink. Jungkook doesn't know this yet, what am I supposed to do. Now there's two of us who's carrying Jungkook child.

Unlike normal nights, I slept without shedding tears I should change my unhealthy habits like crying and stress eating. I should consider and always think of my baby's health.

The next day I was busy baking cookies when my mom called me.

"Y/N..." I saw her with a phone on her hand.

"Hmm..." I gave her a smile but it slolwy faded when I noticed my mother's scared expression.

"What happend ma?"

"J-Jungkook... Jungkook is inv-volved in a c-car accident."

Those words made me lose grip of the tray I was holding.

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