Disguised Feelings • 𝙟.𝙟𝙠 ✓

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙞𝙭𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

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I woke up when I felt something heavy.

I slowly opened my eyes only to see Jungkook's arms holding my waist.

I did a quick breathing exercise before deciding to get out of Jungkook's room.

I slowly lift his arm, not wanting him to wake up.

I quietly stood up and fixed my clothes. As I check Jungkook's temperature and fixing the comforter that covers Jungkook's body, I felt my heart melted when I realized that Jungkook cuddled me to sleep.

Then I remembered about his confession yesterday.

I wonder what will be Minhi's reaction if she founds out about this. Or maybe she already know, thus why I can't see her this past few days.

I stared at Jungkook for a while before deciding to go out.

I went to my room to take a quick shower.

Once relaxed I sat on the couch of our living room.

My head aches from all the dramas and chaos that is happening this past few weeks.

This gives me too much stress. Even on sundays I couldn't take a break because I still need to think of a way solve them.

I wanted to take it slow and have a break with mine and Jungkook's relationship, I don't want to act normal and accept Jungkook's affection.

He made me feel worse for the past 4 years and with just one snap I'll feel happy because he finally loved me? Hell nah.

I'm not even sure if I feel the same way with Jungkook, I mean yeah I have a crush on him and I like him but is it enough to say that we should be together?

And what about Minhi, his secretary that became his girlfriend, or what. I don't know how to describe her relationship with him. Not to mention having sex with her even though she knows that I'm married to him.

With that reflection I decided to take these all slow. So I'll makes sire that every decision I make is right.

I rested my head on the back rest of the couch. I massaged my temple to calm myself from getting frustrated and stressed out.

Like totally I wanted to break down and just cry the whole day, but wouldn't it be useless crying won't make anything good and work just fine.

I heard the door being closed so O turned my head to see who it was.

"Why did you leave?" Jungkook said his eyes is half close.

He went towards me and sat beside me.

"I'm just thinking on how to sort things out."

That caught his attention. He faced me looked at me intently.

"Uhmm did you think about the thing that I confessed."

I nodded and it made him gulp.

"I want to take things slow." He nodded. "We should still treat each other like how it used to be but more... Errmm normal I guess?"

"Uhm I also want to take my time to figure things out. And as much as possible I don't want to be 'the mistress' in your relationship with Minhi." I added

His face shows calmness and relieved at what I said.

"Minhi and I talked about this, she already knows that things weren't the same as before, actually she was the one who noticed it."

"Wait what?"

"Minhi and I decided to have seperate ways, she said I wasn't the same Jungkook she met 2 years ago." I hear sadness in his voice.

Which made my heart ache.

I admit I sometimes feel envious of Minhi for having Jungkook's attention.

"If you think that I'm courting you because Minhi and I broke up then you're wrong." He explained clenching his fist. "I don't want to be that jerk amd immature version of myself who is unsure with life decisions and f ucks up. For goodness sake I'm already an adult. I'm courting you because I love you and if you want to slow things down it's okay."
I went speechless at that, I didn't expected this to happen.

"Jungkook we're married what do you mean with courting?" I said.

"I mean I want a fresh start in our relationship and fix things."

I rolled my eyes at him making him chuckle.

"Okay."

His smile stretched widely.

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The next day it was time for work again.

I showered, did my make up and wore my corporate clothes.

I twisted the door knob and pushed the door and I was surprised to see a yellow belle lay on the floor.

I picked it up and was mesmerized to it's beauty.

I went to the kitchen to have a little breakfast still holding the flower in my hand.

If froze when I saw Jungkook trying his best to flip the scrambled egg.

I think he felt my presence and it made him to turn his gaze to me.

He looks at the things I was holding before bringing his eyes back to mine.

"Good morning."

He placed the scrambled egg in a plate and put some ketchup in it.

I felt new to this feeling, waking up and found out that someone is making breakfast for me.

I couldn't hide the smile, I sat on the chair and began to eat what Jungkook cooked.

Not bad.

I finished everything on the plate and stood up to ready myself to go to work.

I went to the shoe rack near our main door and wore the beige colored stilettoes.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and saw Jungkook handing me my coat.

"Do well at work."

"Okay."

He kissed my forehead, I bit my lower lip to refrain my self from smiling.

Aish.

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