Mister & Miss Virtuoso

39: Intimate Kiss

Liam have to double-check if he is seeing things right. Or if he is just hallucinating that I am real, standing in front of him, crying and screaming at the same time.

Tumayo si Liam, still shock from my sudden appearance.

"A-Amor? W-what the hell is this? Are you real? Are you here? For real?" His question escaped his mouth one after another.

Looking at him, hindi ko na pinigilan ang true emotion ko. I missed him. I missed him so much that it hurts finding out na ganito na pala sya ngayon. He learned to drink and to smoke. Pinabayaan din nya ang studies nya. He is always absent in school that is why I think I'm already fine because hindi ko na sya nakikita ng madalas. I thought I will eventually go back to my old self, pero isan bwan na ang lumipas, and ngayong nakita ko nanaman sya nandito parin yung same effects. My pulse throb hard, my tummy felt weird, my heart if flipping in joy just by his sight.

I run towards Liam and embrace him in my arms. Tapos umiyak ako sa dibdib nya.

"I'm so sorry!!!" I cried on his chest. "I'm really sorry!!" Paulit-ulit akong humihingi ng tawad sa kanya.

It's stupid because I still noticed that his scent smells the same despite of how his whole room smell right now. There is a touch of cigarette smell but that didn't made him less desirable. I felt the warness of Liam's palm and skin against the fabric that I'm wearing. Halos mabasa na din yung damit nya dahil sa luha ko.

While hugging me back with the same intensity, he asked, "how did you get in? How long have you been here?"

"Hindi mo pinalitan yung passcode mo, dumbo." I answered addressing him on the nickname that I used to call on him.

"Nagtatago ka the whole time?"

"No. Nung kumatok lang ang dad mo,"

"Why did you hide? You really are a silly girl." Then he chuckled.

Nanatili kaming magkayakap for couple of minutes, nobody talk, nobody say a word, we simply feel the up and down of each other's chest and feel one another's breath. This feels so comfortable, so good to be true ikanga.

"Congratulations," Mayamaya'y sabi nya. Tumingala ako sa kanya, I had calmed down but my eyes haven't stop producing tears. But I look at him confused, asking what is that congratulations for. "You made it to top for the first semester." He added.

My forehead wrinkled. Kumawala ako sa yakap nya at naglagay ng kaunting distansya sa pagitan namin.

"What? Aren't you happy?"

I don't know if he is being sincere or sarcastic but it hurts either one of them. Because I would rather stay on the second rank, on his shadow keysa naman ganito na bumaba sya ng sobra.

"Sa tingin mo ba ikakatuwa ko yun? Pano ako magiging masaya kung ganito ka?!"

"I thought you've move on, masaya ka na so why bother thinking about me?"

"Ganon ba ang tingin mo? Akala mo nakalimutan ko na lahat? Na tinapon ko na lahat ng ganon kabilis? Ganon ba ang tingin mo?"

"Amor, I don't understand, why are you so mad? Diba ikaw naman ang lumayo? You said you wanted to move on, you want everything back to normal, now why are you looking at me like I've ruined everything?" His voice in high pitch, halatang he's holding back his temper.

"You didn't ruined everything but yourself! Sinisira mo yang sarili mo and I was the one to blame! I'm responsible for all it!"

"Amor, no. It's my choice, you didn't do anything wrong. I'm tired of being always the good guy who only hold books. Hindi kita sinisisi, never kitang sinisi sa kung ano man ang nangyayare sa akin ngayon."