Daydreamer Memories (Book 1 in the daydreamer trilogy)

Chapter 11

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I open my eyes and see Regan is still asleep on my lap...I kiss his head and he immediately moves so my lips touch his.

"Izzie, you are amazing, I can’t explain to you how this feels...Hayley is alive! She is healthy, she was never pregnant, she never tried to kill herself, she went to prom and graduated from high school...she’s at college now she even has a boyfriend. Wow it’s like I watched my whole life in a 5 minute video."

Regan breaths in and smiles his beautiful smile.

He stands and pulls me up too him sighing into my hair

"You mean everything to me"

I don't know whay I feel like I want to hear more, god I'm so pathetic, we have been together two minutes and I want him to declare his undying love for me.

Tears fill my eyes and Regan Chuckles as he wipes a stray fall down me cheek. I'm I crying because I'm happy he feels so strongly about me or that he doesn't feel strong enough? Do I even love him? Regan's smile drops as he begins to become concerened with my lack of excitement, I smile as reassurance.

"Regan...you don't know how good it feels to hear you say that!"

I kiss his lips lightly and whisper into them

"I'm yours"

Saying the words makes me shiver in delight, and admiration on Regans face pushes those stupid thoughts out of my head, who gives a crap about love. If it's meant to be it's meant to be and if not I can deal with it, I only have to sleep with him to find out if he is supposed to be with me anyway.

I crash my lips into his before he can say anything. I want to taste him and feel him close to me. I don't think I will ever get enough of this man! He pulls me closer and I can feel his erection pushing into my leg. I pull away quickly and the shock and hurt on his face makes me cringe.

"I’m sorry....we need to talk first" He looks down at himself and embarrassment flushes his cheeks.

"I can't help myself around you, but I will not rush you into anything"

"Oh please believe me when I say I am completely ready for you Regan, but you need to know something first!"

He nods and sits on my couch tapping for me to take the seat beside him.

"If this is about the soul mate thing and the abilities I may or may not get or give you I already know...Isac explained everything, and I am not worried..!"

My mouth falls open as I stare at Regan, he knows!

"And what if we do the deed and nothing happens, can you accept that I have a sould mate somewhere out there that might come and sweep me damn day!"

My response shocked Regan and myself, why am I so angry! oh yeah, he's not worried that he may or may not be my sould mate, he just wants to get into my knickers!, Regan must see me almost losing it and he grabs me pulling me onto his knee and hold my head between both his hands.

"I'm not worried because, you are mine!"

In those three words I heard everything I needed to, the admiration, honesty and love I needed to confirm we are not making a mistake by being together, even if he is not my sould mate, I don't think we could care about anyone else the way we do about each other.

I have just had the most amazing experience of my life!

"Baby....are you ok"

Regan is still in me and is leaning over me on his arms...he pulls out and makes me quiver as I feel warm wet between my legs, I panic as I remember girls bleed after the first time. just as I reach down to see if I am bleeding Regan lifts me into his arms and carries me to the bathroom, he places me into the shower and turns it on climbing in with me and hugging me, he lets the water drizzle down our bodies. I can see slightly pink water going down the drain and am not worried it is not as bad as I thought it would be.