The Royal Alpha

Chapter 18: Misunderstood?!

SIERRA

We sit there on the hospital bed snuggled together for what felt like hours. I am still in his arms and now the intensity of the currents is way more than the first time. Suddenly, I realise that I am naked beneath his shirt and whatever this need is to be close to him becomes overwhelming. I quickly move away from his embrace and settle back on the cushions of the hospital bed.

I do not have the courage to look into his eyes and see his expression. I do not know what I will see in his eyes. I do not want to see those black predatory orbs. I want to see those blue eyes clear like the ocean which always tries to pull me into their depths to seek the secrets lying within. Those blue eyes are a lot more welcoming than the black eyes. I wonder why is this colour change happening. I haven't ever heard of a wolf with changing eye colours.

"Uh.. Th.. Thank you for comforting me," I say looking up at him. As soon as he hears my words, his face morphs into one of sadness. I again made the same mistake but I am so unsure around him. I do not even know him that well. He doesn't reply but stands and moves towards the nearby chair putting some distance between us. It both relieves me as well as makes me yearn for the closeness.

Just then, the door is pushed open by Aztec and Avery and I focus on Aztec as he rushes towards me and enfolds me in his embrace. Goddess! It has been almost a month since the last time I was in his arms and it feels good. The familiar cocoon that his arms form around me makes me feel safe. I hug him back fiercely.

A throat clearing brings me back from those memories when I and Aztec were dating. Looking at him now, I realise that I still love him. I still yearn for him to be mine but the reality is so much different.

"I will be just out of this room. Call me if you need anything," says Fenris and I turn my head towards him while Aztec holds me. Oops! Looking into his eyes, I realise that Aztec is not my mate but Fenris is and he is very angry, very hurt and very much tensed about me being touched by Aztec. I just nod at him unable to form any words because of the guilt his expression brings me. He then leaves the room and at the same time Aztec moves away from me and stands beside his mate holding her close.

The sight makes me jealous as well as very sad. It looks like Aztec has really moved on with his mate and here I am still yearning for him. I feel like such a whore. I have suddenly become the other woman and I do not like it at all. They both look so happy and complete together and I forgot my mate the moment my ex comes to meet me.

"You look so weak and exhausted, Sierra. I am sorry that I couldn't accompany Fenris and his friends to search for you. I got to know about your abduction just a few days ago and till then you were already rescued," says Aztec holding Avery.

"I am fine. Thank you," I say looking at them.

"You can ask for help anytime you want. We are here for you and we still consider you as our friend," says Avery with a sympathetic face. I hate that look.

"So, is anything going on between you and Fenris?" asks Aztec. I can see genuine curiosity in his eyes without any hint of insecurity or jealousy. He truly has moved on.

"No. He saved my life and I am really very grateful to him," I say but skip the part of him being my mate. I do not want to tell him that I rejected my mate for him. I do not want to be known as a pathetic wolf who rejected her mate for some other wolf.

I am such a foolish person. Aztec has moved on and seems to be so happy with his mate. I have become this third person in his life where he is just coming to ask about my whereabouts but doesn't care enough about me to search for me. And after all this, I forgot the person who saved me, my mate, when Aztec comes to meet me with his mate.