20cm ๑ SOOGYU ✔️

๑ 10 ๑

"S-so you-you never loved me?" Kai stuttered.

He broke into harder sobs.

Like I knew he would.

"I didn't- I didn't wanna hurt you-"

"That's bullsh*t! You just wanted to-to play with me. Th-they always do!" His voice cracked.

I didn't know what to say.

I felt tears rising in my own eyes.

I didn't have the right to comfort him.

I had broken him.

Just like I didn't want to do.

Kai was crying too hard.

But I didn't know hard to stop it.

His face was growing red.

I widened my eyes.

He started coughing.

He clutched his chest.

I knew the signs.

But I felt frozen.

Memories.

Flash.

Like a bolt of lightening.

A roar of thunder.

Hitting me like the pitter patter of rain.

Tears were streaming down my face as I screamed for Taehyun.

But it only made things worse.

Because I was panicking.

Which made him panic more.

Which made him cough more.

Which made his airways close more.

I knew all I had to do was unbutton his shirt and find his inhaler.

But I felt like n o t h i n g.

๑ I was n o t h i n g. ๑