20cm ๑ SOOGYU ✔️

๑ 55 ๑

I looked up at the plain white ceiling of my bedroom.

Body numb.

Feeling dumb.

Not knowing what I had become.

Sometimes I just sat.

And thought.

Why was I wasting my time?

Why were we wasting our time?

Was it just all miscommunication?

Because sometimes I feel like you might like me too.

And that maybe floral dresses and fruity perfume is just a coverup.

But then you hit me with things like this.

That make me cry.

Sob.

Like right now.

I was crying.

Sobbing.

I wanted to feel angry.

I wanted to hate you.

But I couldn't.

I loved you.

I couldn't be angry at you.

And that made me angry at myself.

And then it made me look.

Look up at the plain white ceiling of my bedroom.

Body numb.

Feeling dumb.

Not knowing what I had become.

Because you hurt me.

So much.

And I hurt you.

So much.

Yet I'm still attracted to you.

Like an addiction.

We're like positive and negative.

But who's positive?

And who's negative?

We're like night and day.

But who's night?

And who's day?

I sat up from my bed.

I was ready.

I felt brave.

Fearless.

I had nothing to lose.

Except you.

But right now.

I already felt like I had lost you.

So I was gonna do it.

๑ I was going to confess to you. ๑