BOOK ONE | jace wayland imagines

28. catching the wind

STORY CREATED BY imagineswriting47

I knew what it was like to love someone that I could never be with. To love him was like loving the wind you: could never hold onto it no matter how hard you tried. I loved Jace with my whole heart. He was my best friend along with Izzy and Alec. I didn't think that anything could pull us four apart; I was wrong. I felt bad for Clary when Jace first brought her here. She didn't know anything about this world that we lived in, the world that she seemed to be apart of. Like Jace, I wanted to help her. She was a mystery that I wanted the answers to. I never did care for a mystery.

I thought that everything would get better after we found her mother and woke her up, but that only made things more complicated, and then she was dead. She was killed by a demon that had possessed Alec and Izzy. When we all needed him the most, it seemed like he wasn't there. I had hoped that things would get better after Valentine had been stopped; we were all doing everything that we could to stop him. It was an odd break between everything. No demon activity that others couldn't handle, and no new information on Valentine. I had taken this time to be alone to get away from everything and, for a moment, pretend that everything was going to be okay. That is how Izzy found me down in the catacombs, in a dusty old room.

"What are you doing down here Y/N?" She says, startling me.

"I just needed a break from everything," I tell her, hoping that she will take the hint and leave me alone.

"You know that you can talk to me right? It's about Jace isn't it?" I look up to her and my eyes widen. I thought that I had hidden things well, acted like nothing was wrong. I should have known that Izzy would see it.

"I don't know what you are talking about," I reply as I close my eyes and lean my head back against the wall. I can hear her move into the small room to sit next to me. If I hadn't known Izzy for as long as I had, I wouldn't have been able to tell that she was moving further into the room.

"Now I know that is a lie. You and Jace were always together. Where one was the other wouldn't be far. But now I can't remember the last time that I saw the both of you in the same room. Talk to him. You might just find that he loves you just as much as you love him." She takes my hand in hers as we continue to sit there.

"Izzy I'm tired I think that I am going to bed early. I'll see you in the morning." I can tell that she is not too happy. I didn't reply to what she said about Jace and I. But she is wrong; I can see the way that Jace looks at Clary. He can say as many times as he wants that he doesn't care about her, but I can see the truth.

I start to avoid all of them after that. It's better that way, for me and for them. So when the Clave offers a position at another Institute, I knew that I had to think about it, but I also already knew that I would take it. Maybe a new start is what I needed to move on and find my own happiness away from Jace. I am in the middle of packing my things before telling the Clave that I am going to go when my door is thrown open I turn to find Alec and Izzy standing in the doorway to my room. Both of them look mad, but I can see the hurt in their eyes too.

"Thanks for knocking," I mumble to myself as I turn back to my things. I'm not able to look at them, knowing that it was myself that put that look of hurt in their eyes. I never wanted to hurt them.

"No! You don't get to say that Y/N. I can take you pulling away from us. I can understand that, even if I don't agree with it, nor do I like it. But I will not allow you to leave us," Alec says.

"It isn't your choice Alec; it's mine. I'm going. I can't do it anymore." I don't turn to talk to them—I don't want to talk to them. I don't have anything to say to them. I know that if I keep talking I will cave and I will not leave them like I am planning to.