An Envious Obsession

Trouble in Paradise

Chapter 16

Janet

Its been a few weeks since the road trip, and I have to admit. It helped me, and Toni's friendship a lot. She's communicating better with me, we spend more time with each other, and she's still seeing her therapist. Things are going extremely well now, and I couldn't be happier.

Except the situation with Aaliyah.....someone left a black rose on our doorstep, so we immediately called the police after we discovered it. We showed them the call records, the threatening voice mails, and the black rose.

They were going to check the rose for finger prints, and they were going to see if they can get something off the tire tracks that are in my grass. But that all happened last week, and they still have nothing.

But now I'm sitting in the lobby of Zeus Dor Elaine, he's that nude photographer that Aaliyah suggested I work with.

I finally agreed to do it, because I honestly think it would help. It just took me some time to think about it. I feel sexy naked, only with Aaliyah though. And I want to feel sexy all the time...especially to myself. Because that's what matters the most, how I feel about myself.

"Janet Jackson."

I look up, and the man himself. Mr Dor Elaine. I raise my hand as I stand up.

"Follow me." He says, then he disappears back into the photography room. I look over at Aaliyah, she's smiling.

" I'm shitting bricks right now,I'm so nervous."

Aaliyah grabs my hand, and walks me towards the door. "Just relax, and pretend there's nobody in the room with you."

"I'm still nervous, that didn't help one bit."

We reach the entrance, as the model that just got her photos taken walks by she leaves the studio. I watched her walk out.

"See...that model was gorgeous... I can't do this." I turn to walk away but Aaliyah snatches me back.

"Janet...I went through a lot to get this scheduled for you. He's a very busy man, please...are you sure you want to leave...or do you want to take this next step in your journey?"

I bite down on my bottom lip nervously, I couldn't decide what I wanted to do. "I don't know..." I close my eyes, and exhale.

"Fuck...fine... are you going to be in there with me?" I ask as she loosens her grip on my arms.

"Of course. Now let's go."

I walk in first, slowly but I was just glancing around. A few people scattered the area.

I saw lights pointing towards an all white set with a flat white sofa, and a soft blanket.

Looked pretty simple to me, but I guess he knows what he's doing.

"Ms.Jackson right?" A lady with a headpiece, and clipboard ask.

I nod. And she grabs my hand, and leads me towards a hair and makeup station. "Follow me dear."

I hear Aaliyah behind me gesturing me to go ahead, I look back at her with an uneasy look. I wasn't so sure about this, and my stomach was still in nots.

"Sit down darling, we're going to make you look flawless."

I sit back in the chair, and to other people come up t the station sitting their bags, and kits down.

"Your not going to pound a load of makeup on my face are you?" I ask backing my face away before she even touched it.

She exhales as if she's aggravated with me already. "Sweetie, just let us work our magic. You will see it all at the end." She turns me around away from the mirror.